11:01 am
Just what I needed
Edge tracked me down to my home. He dropped in on me yesterday and threatened, in a very unsubtle way, to tell the
media where Lex really was all summer. This is bad. I can handle it, but it's really bad.
He wants the package I took from Lionel or else. I told him I don't have it, because there is no way I am going to let that prick control my
life. He totally pissed me off. I wanted to tear him a new one, but that would probably not be the best way to handle this whole thing.
Instead I did something really stupid; I ripped the door off his car. I was so mad. I know I shouldn't have done that, but it was that or
break him in half.
He said he'd be back and that if I didn't have his package, I'd regret it. I regret ever meeting him, so he's right about regretting
anything else that happens.
I laughed in his face when he threatened to tell Lionel about my true relationship with Lex. I guess I shouldn't have bragged that Lionel
already knows how much his son loves to play with my assets. Lex is probably going to be really mad at me. He went away on business for the
weekend, but there's no way I am going to get him involved in any of this. There's no way I'm going to let Edge use Lex again.
I would have been afraid of somebody like him a few years ago, but now Edge is definitely the least of my worries. I better ask Dad what he
thinks I should do. Maybe I should just give it back. It's not like they can read what it says or what it's about.
Now I know why Lionel was so fascinated with the caves. I always thought it was because they were connected to me. I thought it was because
of Lex. I guess I was wrong. Sometimes I wish I could just... but I can't think that way. Even if Lex doesn't exactly worship him, Lionel is
still his father.
This totally sucks. I didn't think that my return was going to be perfect and happy, but I really didn't need this. The other night when I
stopped by to see Lex, it was so nice. It almost felt like old times. We played pool and almost managed to finish a game before I pushed him
into the table and kissed him until he was incoherent. After that, we went up to his room and had the most amazing sex. It felt so good to
be equals in bed. When I was high it was nice too, but it wasn't like this. When I'm me, it feels more like we're both in control. I like it
better this way.
It doesn't matter because Lex is hot no matter what. He loves to be topped and I love to top. Life is perfect with him, now if only
everything else would fall into place. I think if he stays with me, life will never be calm.
~
09:42 pm
Now that was a homecoming
I spent almost all weekend unpacking and putting everything back where it belonged -- well sort of everything. Some of
my things went up to the loft instead of my room. I kind of like it way more out here than I do in my bedroom. Here in the loft I can be
completely alone. I don't have to feel like I need to talk to Mom and Dad all the time. I know I just got back, but it feels stifling having
them there all the time. I used to love it. I never felt like they were holding me back or making me feel like I was somehow penned in. Over
the summer, I had so much independence, and it's so hard to let that go. I want to be free all the time. I don't want to do chores or clean
my room or any of those things.
I definitely do not want to do my homework. It feels wrong, or I feel wrong. I sort of talked to Dad about it and he told me to give it
time. He was so understanding about some of the things I said. I didn't tell him that I sometimes wished I was back in the city, but he
knew. He said he could see it in my eyes that I wasn't quite comfortable with being back. He even asked if I regretted making the choice to
stay. I know I don't regret it. I just feel almost like a stranger. It's weird.
Lex finally came home today. I called him up and invited myself over. As soon as I saw him, I felt alive again. I'd spent the whole weekend
in an almost-bored haze, but seeing Lex with his smirk and that way he has of tilting his hips at me as if he's saying 'I dare you to jump
me now' I had to touch. I couldn't resist. I tried to make small talk. He said he had some unfinished business to clean up and that his
weekend was boring. He looked very happy to see me and when I pushed him up against the wall and kissed him hard, there was no way I was
going to wait even the few minutes it would have taken us to go up to his room. I stripped him naked and pulled him over to the sofa, got
down on my knees and sucked him until he came. Then I fucked him hard. I admit it was the best high ever. I love that feeling of frenzied
sexual release.
Fuck, what the hell is happening to me? I can't even be away from Lex for a few days without my hormones exploding into an embarrassing
almost-public display of heat.
I loved it.
After the wonderful orgasm where I came inside him and he grabbed handfuls of my hair, we collapsed in a sweaty heap on his furniture. I
didn't want to leave, but unfortunately we don't live together anymore. That's not so bad since he does live only a five-second run away.
I didn't bother taking a shower after I got home since I knew Dad wanted me to finish tonight's chores so he and Mom could get busy. I am
very sure that is what's happening right this second. I think I'm going to sleep out in the loft tonight.
~
09:44 pm
This is going to haunt me forever
It was too good to be true that I hadn't heard from Edge for a few days. Yesterday while Mom and Dad were out, he
showed up with a few stooges in tow. They weren't playing around this time. Somehow Edge found out about my weakness to the green rocks. He
showed up on the farm and threatened to hurt everybody close to me. When he pulled out that rock I was so stunned, I just told him where I
had the map. He didn't stop there. He said Lionel would be very interested in me so he duct-taped me up and his henchmen threw me in the
back of a truck. Luckily by the time the truck had stopped, I managed to break free and blow the truck up while I was in it, so Edge
probably thinks I'm dead. At least I hope so. I don't ever want to see him again.
I ran home and cleaned up before my parents found me in my dirty, shredded clothing. It was totally annoying. At least now I'm rid of that
stupid map and my life can go back to normal. Pete stopped by the other day and we went out to a movie. It was so nice to do something
simple. He talked nonstop about some girl he's been seeing. It's nice that some things never change. I declined to be set up on a blind
date. I almost said she just isn't my type unless she has balls, but Pete pulled out his usual 'Lana isn't going to date you' routine and I
let him do the rest.
Now I'm here in school in the Torch office. Chloe's been really quiet lately and not as available as usual. Every time I run into her she
tells me she has something urgent to take care of. Lana hasn't said much either. I'm sure things will get back to normal. Maybe I should
apologize again for the things I said and did to her.
~
01:12 pm
It will never be the same
I know things have changed. I'm the cause of some of those changes. I chained him to the bed, thinking at the time,
while under the influence of the red kryptonite, that I was doing the right thing. Sometimes late at night, I think about what I did. I
won't forget any of it as long as I live. Lex is scarred for life because of what I did. He stays with me and he looks into my eyes and I
see love and understanding and acceptance, but every once in a while I see something else. I see sadness and maybe a little fear.
He talked in his own journal about how late at night he feels the weight of the cuff and the chain. I wanted to ask him about it, but I
couldn't. I didn't want to hear him say it out loud. I don't want him to hurt anymore.
We had a great time the other night. He stopped by when I was doing chores and it almost felt like before. I almost felt like the summer had
never happened. I forgot for just a moment that any of those things had ever been a part of my life. I think it was the happiest I've felt
since I've returned from the city. I felt overjoyed when he showed up at the farm after I'd thought for sure that he was dead, but this was
different. I felt like the weight of the world was gone.
~
03:07 pm
Screw you, too
Dad and I had an argument last night. After dinner, I went out to do some of the chores. I even did his share so my
parents could have some alone time. I was in a good mood. To be honest, I wanted to be alone, and sometimes when I do chores with Dad, I
feel like he watches me way too closely. I don't know what the hell he's looking for.
For some reason, he came out after all, instead of staying in with Mom, and then he just stood there watching as I lifted the tractor to
move it to the side so I could sweep 'The fun stuff I love to do so much'. Suddenly out of the blue, he asks me about the ring. The ring I
wear everywhere I go. The one Lex gave me. I didn't lie. I told him where it was from and how I got it. This is totally my fault. I wasn't
thinking because I was too busy concentrating on dirt. Can I blame this one on dirt?
He voiced the opinion that he's not happy about my true relationship with Lex. I was stunned. I thought he'd finally accepted us, but it
seems like that isn't the case. He said I'm too young to know what I want, etc.: the usual bullshit. I tried to keep my temper in check.
There was shouting and I broke a shovel when I threw it into the wall. Dad wasn't impressed, but I didn't care about a stupid shovel.
I told him point blank that this is what I want and that Lex is who I want to be with. I told him that I would never change my mind. I'm
glad for what I said. I won't take it back and I don't care what he thinks.
This morning at breakfast he was quiet and Mom gave us both looks, so I know he didn't say anything to her. I just can't believe Dad is so
pigheaded. I was going to talk to him, but he made excuses and was out the door before I could say a word. I ran to school to burn off
energy. I wanted to fly away. I was so tempted. I did it once, I could try it again. I could take Lex away from all this.
On top of that, Pete gave me grief first thing. I told him to shut up and I just walked away. I haven't talked to him since, but I will
apologize for sure because it wasn't his fault. I was in a bad mood. I can't take that out on him. I feel so trapped.
I need to fly.
~
02:29 pm
This is unbelievable!
My parents told me this morning that because I ran away over the summer and because I'm at risk of running away again,
I have to go see a shrink! My first appointment is today after school. I was not happy to hear this first thing this morning. My parents
didn't tell me about it until today. Dad looked very unhappy about it and my parents were having an argument as I left for school this
morning.
I reassured Dad that I wouldn't tell some stranger my deepest, darkest secrets. It's not like I'd blurt out whom I'm dating and other stuff
Dad doesn't want people to know. We're a very private family. I've never liked to talk to anybody about my personal life. Now I have to go
meet some stranger and tell him all my secrets. No way. I am not going to do it. I'll go because Mom wants me to go, but there is no way I
am going to tell them why I ran away from home and what I did all summer.
I can just see it now. 'Yes doc, I tied my man up and fucked him really hard, repeatedly.'
Maybe I should have stayed in the city with Lex. He'd never make me go see some strange person. Mom wrote me a reminder note because I am
three. I have to go to the town medical center to see this doctor. I think I'll call them Dr. Noseybody.
On a much better note, yesterday I went to see Lex at his place. It felt so good to be with him. I have to admit, I couldn't keep my hands
off of him. We went up to his room and had the best sex. It's always so great with him. He's so great. He looked amazing.
When I got home and Dad asked where I had been, I told him I was with Lex up in his bedroom. I probably shouldn't have, but I was still
angry at him for what he'd said about Lex the other day. It shouldn't still be like this. He should be past all that.
I almost forgot to give Mom her present on Monday. It was her birthday, and Dad took her out to dinner. I don't have as much spending money
as I had over the summer *cough cough* so I could only afford to get her a 'Greatest mom in the world' mug. Lamest gift ever, but she said
she liked it. I also did all the chores that day and I plan to do them all weekend.
I had better get back to class. I am so tempted to make stuff up for this guy I'm seeing today. It would be kind of fun.
~
05:22 pm
First appointment over with
After school yesterday, I went to my very first counselor appointment. The first thing she did was ask me to sit down.
She had this file in front of her about me. I sneaked a look at it. All my encounters with the law were in the file. Even the accident on
the bridge was there.
She seemed really nice, but I told her point blank that I didn't plan on running away again any time soon. I told her I thought I didn't
need to be there. She still made me stay the full forty-five minutes. I have to go every Thursday after school and she said that everything
we talk about will be kept private.
Her office is small and she has all these books behind her desk. She even has a bowl of candy on top of her desk. I didn't really say much.
She asked me where I wanted to start, then suggested that I tell her why I ran away. What was I supposed to say to that? I was kind of in a
bad mood so I told her what my dad had said to me in the hospital after Mom lost the baby. I still can't forget his words and the way he
looked at me. She asked me all these questions about my dad. I didn't say much but I didn't lie.
I was so glad when it was over that I rushed out of there as fast as I could. I ran out to a field and sat alone for a few hours. I'm not
sure why. I just knew that if I went straight home, I would have blown up at my parents. They didn't do anything wrong, I just feel out of
place now. I haven't felt like I belong since I came home from my adventures in the city.
At least it's the weekend. Maybe something good will happen.
~
09:09 pm
What did they think?
That everything was going to be perfect once I was home? That I was going to pretend like nothing had ever happened?
That I could forget that the baby is dead because of what I did?
Sometimes it's hard to even look at my mom. I love my parents so much. They have sacrificed so much for me and for us as a family. I'm
trying so hard. At least I think I am. I realized that I spend most of my time since I've been home either at school, at the mansion with
Lex, or up in the loft. I still haven't really talked to Dad much this past week.
I went over last night to see Lex. Even when I go over there and we just sit together, I feel more comfortable with him than I do at home.
I probably need time. Everybody keeps saying give it time. Things will go back to normal. They're wrong. Nothing will ever go back to normal
because I am not normal! Nothing about me is normal. It never has been and it never will be.
Maybe I should just face that. Maybe I just need to accept who and what I am and move on.
~
12:54 pm
I am...
So bored! Class first thing this morning was so boring. I wished I'd stayed home to finish up some work for Dad. At
least then I would have gotten something semi-productive done. Since I don't have a car of my own (I miss that Lamborghini), Pete has been
giving me rides to school in the morning. He stopped in this morning to pick me up. I really appreciate that he's concerned about me. I
really appreciate that everybody is concerned about me, but it's getting tiresome very fast.
I want everybody to just go on with their lives and leave me alone. I just want to move forward. Why can't they believe me when I say I'm
fine? Pete isn't convinced. He thinks I need somebody nice in my life. I told him I'm fine with who I have. When he asked for specifics this
time I wanted to badly to tell him that I have Lex in ways he could never imagine, which is so true but I wasn't thinking sexually. I was
thinking about how loyal and supportive Lex has been through everything that's happened. I wish I could just tell Pete about Lex and be done
with it.
Maybe I will. I'm a little tired of him insisting that all I need is a nice girl to make me feel better. He even brought up Lana and said he
thought that things between Lana and Chloe are rocky. I think Pete's just making stuff up. Chloe and Lana looked just fine to me when I saw
them in the hallway this morning. Lana looks really good lately, as in happy good. I haven't had much time to talk at length to either of
them, but they both look content.
Mom and Dad are another story. I have to go see that lady again tomorrow. I'm already dreading it. This time I will just sit there and say
nothing. I have nothing to say. I wish Mom would back off on this. Can't she tell that all I want is just to be left alone? In the end I
know it's what she wants, so I'll do it for her, because I can't stand to see the sadness in her eyes. I really wish things were like they
used to be, but things change, people change -- I changed. I'm never going to be the same again.
Sometimes I go to the storm cellar and just sit and stare. Dad rebuilt it over the summer. He did a great job. I don't regret for one second
what I did to it, but the fallout has been harsher than I could have ever imagined. Consequences suck.
I can't wait to see Lex tonight. I am going over for dinner, not that I asked but I'm going to call right now to see if he's up for some
company. I miss him.
~
10:01 am
Last night
I ended up calling Lex from school to ask if he was up for some company, so we arranged a dinner date. When I finally
got home from school, Dad was busy doing some heavy work that I took over. I don't want him to hurt himself. He hasn't been the same since
he came after me in the city. I know he was hurt way more than he's willing to let on, and I think he might still be feeling the effects of
his super moment.
Once I was done with chores, I told my parents that I'd be having dinner with Lex. At least this time Dad did not give me the look -- the
one he used to give me whenever I talked about Lex.
I ran to the mansion, and we had the nicest dinner ever. I love to hear Lex talk about things. I didn't even care what he talked about as
long as he talked. He seems a bit wary about his dad, but then I don't blame him. After everything that's happened, I'm willing to bet he'll
keep a very close eye on the old man.
After dinner we went up to his private rooms. It's so nice to have that. I lost all that when I came back. My loft isn't exactly the most
private place and my bedroom is still a walk-in-whenever-I-feel-like-it zone as far as my parents are concerned. Not that they walk in on me
and stuff. It's just not as private as it was when I was living alone. I miss that so much. I miss being my own boss.
It was so relaxing to be with Lex. I am so glad that I told him about being an alien. I don't have to hide from him.
We had the most awesome, amazing sex. I felt so alive when I was inside him. Staring into his eyes made me feel so naked and exposed. I
don't even mean in a physical way. I can't even explain it. I felt like he could look into me and know me. It sounds so corny.
I was so relaxed after the most awesome orgasm ever that I slipped up and suggested that maybe I could tie him up. I instantly felt horrible
that I'd said it. At least he didn't freak or anything, not that I could imagine Lex freaking. He said maybe in the future, so it seems like
he might still be into that. I have to admit that I love it. I want to do it again. I have fantasies about it at night while I'm jerking
off.
We had sex a second time because after I brought up the bondage thing, I couldn't get it out of my head, so I fucked him again. He was
totally into it and when he came he called me angel. I used to hate that nickname but now when he says in private like that, it just makes
me feel good. Lex makes me feel good.
I didn't want to leave last night. Before, back in the city we could have just fallen asleep and woken up together, but I had to be home
because it was a school night.
Now I am at school and I don't want to be here. I want to go out running. I want to be doing anything else but this. I dread that I have to
go to see that lady today at five. Maybe I'll get a flat tire, which would be totally believable if I owned a car.
I have gym class next. Showing with a bunch of other guys will at least take some of the harsh from my day. I peek all the time because
dude, I just can't not peek. Naked guys.
~
09:52 pm
Head shrinking session two
Okay, so I went in thinking there was no way I was going to say a thing to her at all. Then somehow we end up talking
about whether I have a girlfriend or boyfriend. She actually asked if I have a boyfriend! She must have figured out that I'm gay. How could
she know? My parents didn't tell her much about my personal life. I asked Dad as soon as I walked in the door after I got back from seeing
my doctor if they'd told her I was gay. I was so angry. Dad said they'd never do anything to betray my personal life. So why are they making
me see this woman?
Of course I told her that I don't have a girlfriend or boyfriend. Then she started to ask me all these questions about how that makes me
feel. Since I lied about not having a significant other, I told her I felt just fine about it.
She totally knows that I am gay. She must. She didn't come out and say it, but she must know. There's no other explanation unless she was
fishing to find out if I was available for a date, but I'm pretty sure that dating between doctor and patient isn't allowed. Plus I am just
a kid. Not that I look like a kid, as Lex always tells me.
At least I survived another session, and went straight to my room after chastising my dad even though it turned out that he didn't tell her
about my sexual preference. If he had, it would be a whole lot easier.
Mom just came into my room to check on me. She brought me pie and a glass of milk. I feel bad that I freaked earlier, and I told her that
I'm fine with seeing the therapist. I want her to be happy. I even agreed to do the farmers' market with them this Saturday morning. It
means getting up very early, but so what? I haven't done that in a while. It could be kind of fun.
The pie was awesome.
~
11:22 pm
Market and suave boyfriends
I had a great time. Not only did I have to wake up early to get everything ready, which was cool, but I stood and
watched as my new doctor walked through the market place and then accidentally ran into Lex.
I say accidentally because it didn't look like an accident to me. It looked deliberate. It looked like she was there hoping to run into Lex
or maybe me. She did stop very briefly at our stand to say hello and even bought something to make it look like she was just there to make
some friendly neighborly purchases.
It couldn't have been a coincidence. There's no way. Does she suspect about me and Lex? I mean, the whole town knows that I am best friends
with Lex. They all know that I saved his life at that accident and she's been living in this town for a long time. I think her family has
lived here for a long time. I should probably investigate her. What if she's up to something? What if she's trying to get to Lex?
I sound way too paranoid, but I can't help it. She stopped and shook hands with Lex and they talked, but they were too far away for me to
hear what they were saying. Eventually it just drove me nuts so I went over to say hello. I was just being friendly. She wrapped things up
and told Lex it was nice meeting him. I didn't want to sound all paranoid with Lex, so I didn't say anything right there, but after the
things that his father has pulled, I don't know what to think.
Or maybe she was being nice and I'm just overreacting. It was still unnerving to see Lex and her talking. He was all suave and stuff. He was
even flirting with her. He does that all the time without even realizing it: flirts with some lady. It's cool. I don't mind that he flirts.
It's not like he's not allowed to now that we're together.
I went by the mansion tonight just to make sure he didn't think I was trying to be all jealous and stuff earlier in the day with the whole
interrupting of his conversation. He seemed fine. He kissed damn fine. I wanted to do it but we ended up just making out on the sofa in
front of the fire. It was nice. I still got really horny of course, but I can't think with my dick all the time. He's probably still a bit
sore from the other night anyway.
We kissed and groped each other then I popped some popcorn and we watched the fire. It felt good to just be comfortable together. I love
that we can relax like that. He looked a little lost in thought for a lot of the evening but I didn't mind. I loved just staring at him.
He's so gorgeous in firelight. I feel corny saying that about him, but his eyes glitter.
The farm is really quiet tonight. Mom and Dad are in the living room watch the news and reading the paper. They looked really happy today.
I'm glad I did the market with them. I told them I'd like to do it every weekend. I don't think I've seen Mom smile so happily in a long
time. It made me feel so loved. Maybe I'm finally starting to settle down and leave that guy I was in the city behind me.
~
12:41 pm
At least I know this day will get better
It's been a pretty good week so far. Things between my parents and me are great. Ever since the weekend, I've felt much
better. I think I'm finally starting to feel more like myself again. I am really looking forward to tonight because I'm going over to the
mansion to see Lex. He's been very busy over the last few days.
I just wish he wouldn't blame himself for everything that goes wrong in the world. It's not his fault that Feegan left. I may not have
talked to Feegan to confirm this fact, but I'm pretty sure Lex isn't personally responsible for what happened. I'll have to drill that into
his gorgeous head. It feels like an impossible task sometimes to convince him that the world isn't out to get him. His dad is such a jerk
for making him think this way.
I rode to school this morning with Pete, and we're tentatively making plans to do something together this coming weekend. We're not sure
what, but I think we need it. I've really missed him. He doesn't hold anything I did while I was in the city against me. He saved all the
news clippings from things that he thought were my doing. I went through them and told him which ones he got right. He was pretty dead on
with most of them. I was not the one who saved a brothel full of naked women. That story was totally not even true. He'll believe anything
if it involves naked women. Who uses the word brothel anymore?
Seriously, it feels so good to feel almost human again. I need to get my ass in gear for my next class. I also need to make an effort to
talk to Chloe and Lana more. I've been keeping them at arm's length since I returned.
~
02:56 pm
Mmm last night was just great.
My dad kind of hinted this morning over breakfast that I might want to get a haircut today after my doctor's
appointment. I like my hair the way it is. I haven't had it cut in over five months. It looks cool. I love when Lex runs his fingers through
it. I wasn't going to tell Dad that Lex likes to hold onto my hair when I suck him off. That would probably not have been the right
approach. It might just give him a heart attack to know that last night I got down on my knees and gave Lex a mind-blowing blow-job.
I had such a great time last night with Lex. I went over after I had dinner with my parents. We fooled around *wink* and had all kinds of
fun. The blow-job was only the beginning.
I have so much to do today. Lex went to the city to see his dad. I hope he doesn't come back all angry. Even if he does, we can just fuck
his anger away.
I'm finally starting to feel more at home again.
~
06:35 pm
My doctor says I have anger issues. I went to my appointment just like always, only this time Lex picked me up from
school after classes to give me a drive into town. He had an ulterior motive. He wanted to let me know that he'll be working for his father.
I can't believe this. I was so angry with him when he told me. His father has been nothing but a pain. Did Lex forget all the things his dad
has pulled? I haven't forgotten about the time he bugged Lex's office. He probably still watches those videos of us that he made. Pervert!
Lex dropped me off, and I was still mad when I went into the doctor's office. I practically yanked the door off its hinges. So they're going
to have to have it fixed -- big deal. It's not like doctors don't make a ton of money.
Once I was in, she asked why I was so mad. There was no way I could tell her the whole story so I just said that a close friend was making a
huge mistake and that I had tried to talk him out of it. Then we talked about my dad because she seems to know what a hot temper he has, and
she made some crack about it running in the family. I am adopted, so how can it run in the family? I know my biological father was a jerk
from what I can tell. Maybe it's just in my blood, too. I feel better after talking about my biological father. I might have said too much
because I told her all about how I hate him for trying to force me into being something I'm not.
I'm still kind of mad at Lex. Why can't he just work someplace else?
I hope she doesn't tell my parents about what I said. That would suck. I should probably talk to Dad about this. If I tell him ahead of time
what happened, he'll understand. It would suck if he heard it secondhand.
I was just so angry. I better try to keep calmer next time. I should probably go see Lex, or maybe I'll just make it a night. I'm bound to
feel better in the morning, right?
~
11:05 pm
A vigilante
Lana called me a vigilante. I can't believe she'd call me that and practically accused me of killing Tina Greer. It's
not like I wanted that guy to kill her but somebody else killing him doesn't make it right. I understand that Lana is freaked out by what
happened to her. She was almost drowned. Another person affected by Kryptonite. Thank you, space ship, for bringing them with you.
Fuck! This is just unbelievable. At least I'm working at the Torch again. Chloe and I finally had an actual full-on conversation. Not that I
haven't wanted to talk to her or Lana for that matter. It's just been tough readjusting to being home again, and they both felt the wrath of
Kal at some point during the summer. Another freak made by me. Terrific and some crazy guy with a rifle picked him off right in our own
school: even better. This is just the icing on the cake.
I was already a little wound up when I went over to see Lex tonight. It ended with him handcuffed to the bed and me fucking him really hard.
I know I left bruises but I just couldn't stop myself. I handcuffed his wrist and he looked so amazing. His words of encouragement and trust
were all I needed. The moment was so perfect and I could pretend it was us in the city again and he was all mine.
I apologized afterwards for being so rough, but it felt so good. I get hard when I think about it. He looked so fucking gorgeous. I loved
him and I loved it. I don't want it this way all the time, but definitely some of the time. In fact I am going to have to fucking jerk off
again because I'm thinking about it. I've already gone there twice since I've come back from his place. I must be super horny tonight.
That's probably it.
It just felt so amazing to cut loose, and I was still little angry at him for working for his old man. I just hope Lionel treats him with
respect. Lex deserves it. He's been through so much lately.
best viewed at 1024x768.
Disclaimer: Smallville is owned by DC Comics.