Harvest is coming
I've been so busy with harvest and chores and schoolwork that I haven't really had much spare time for anything. I haven't seen much of Lex.
I did see him Saturday night. He stopped by the loft after some business party he had in the city. I was not happy when he told me who was
there.
Edge! Fucking Morgan Edge was at the party. That prick, who made life hell for me last summer and tried to kill Lex, was there. What does
Lex say when I told him to stay far away from Edge? "I can handle it. I'll tighten up security."
Right - because your fucking security is so great at making sure nobody comes close enough to you to try to kill you. I have lost track of
the number of times somebody has made it past his security to get to Lex.
I was so angry with Lex on Saturday. He acts like nothing happened with Edge over the summer. He acts like this man did not try to kill him.
I guess I shouldn't have gotten so mad, but when I hear Edge's name, I see red. I want to run to the city and find him and break his fucking
neck for ever touching Lex or going anywhere near him. I know I can't do that, but I wish Lionel would not do this to Lex. Lionel has not
been kind to Lex since he's been back from his summer of death. He's keeping him very busy and I know there are things Lex is not telling
me.
I wish I could do more, but I have to just trust Lex and hope that things turn out okay.
At least James is okay now. Lex found him a job with a reputable photography firm. It's in California, but it's work that James was more
than happy to accept. I know why Lex made sure he was very far away.
It's really cute that when Lex gets so jealous he has to ensure the person he's jealous of is too far away to pose a threat. There was no
way James was every getting close to me that way again. I do still appreciate what Lex did for him. I will have to thank him for his help.
~
How can I have this much homework?
It's not fair, but then my dad says life is never fair. I have so much homework and so much studying to do that the only consolation is that
I'm excused from most chores. I only have to do the heavy lifting. At least there's that.
My parents and I have already been talking about what happens next in my education. They want me to go to college, but I know they don't
have the money for that. I'm not sure what I'll do. We've been looking at schools. It just seems impossible to think of right now. I know
exactly how it could happen and there's no scholarship that I could apply for. I checked and unless I want to join the football team (which
I do not) or start art classes, I'm pretty much doomed. Mom and Dad said they'd make it happen somehow.
I've been so busy that I haven't seen Lex in a while. We kind of didn't really make up after that fight we sort of had. I'm just worried
that he'll get hurt. I don't want him to be in danger and his security is so useless. I just hope he's doing okay. I haven't even talked to
him. I guess there's not really anything to say. He said he can take care of it, so I will have to trust him.
~
My week and my day
Nothing much has changed in my life in the past few weeks. I've been busy working and studying. The best part is getting out of some of my
chores because I am busy studying and Dad doesn't want me to fail. Of course he expects me to get all As since I have been studying very
hard. A lot of that time was in truth spent thinking, and I did sneak away a few times to go to the city to watch out for Lex. I never let
him know I'm there. He's been so busy since his father gave him that job.
I am really starting to get the impression that Lionel Luthor would love it if I were to drop out of his son's life. I bet some of it has to
do with the fact that I am a guy and that I am the top in our relationship. I bet it pisses Lionel off that Lex is being fucked by a
dirt-poor farmer. I know he knows what we do when we're alone together. I think that perv still has those tapes he made when he bugged Lex's
office. I still have to get those back. I think I might just do that when I have a few spare moments. I just need to find out where they
are.
I did try to call Lex when I was in the city on Tuesday. I did it from a payphone, hoping to get through. Unfortunately, the secretary still
sent my call to Lionel. I'm pretty sure he tried to imply in his own way that it would be best if I were out of his son's life. Lucky for
me, I can totally play dumb. It works every single time. Sometimes it's an advantage that people think you're not so bright just because
you're pretty.
My sessions with the doctor are going great. I think I have her convinced that I'm not a flight risk, but I think she still thinks I may be
gay. She keeps trying to steer me back to that, but I dodge every time. I asked her when I can stop coming to see her. I pointed out that I
am much better and totally adjusted to my life back home. She said she wasn't sure if I was just telling her what she wanted to hear or if
I'm really as adjusted as I claim to be. I guess I can stick it out. I've been able to stand it so far.
Now I have some major studying to do. I also have to help my mom with preparations for Thanksgiving dinner. Lex is invited and I can't wait.
I am so excited. We're supposed to go back to his place after. I hope we have dessert there and I hope it's my kind of dessert: the kind
where I get to lick whip cream from Lex's body.
~
New ability comes at a price
It feels so good to be able to see again. I have missed my sight so much this past week. I never thought I would see Lex's gorgeous face
again. The first time I heard his voice after the accident, I wanted to cry. I held myself together because I had to, but all I could think
about was how much I was going to miss seeing his beautiful blue eyes. I remember thinking at that moment that I would give anything to get
my sight back, even have Lex mad at me, just so I could see his face.
I can't believe everything that's happened. It was insane. Because of a freak accident, I was totally blinded for a few days. Then I
regained some of my sight and now I have to wear glasses, which sucks. I look like a total dork. The cool part was getting this new ability.
I can hear my parents talking in the house when I'm out in my loft. It's great.
The first night I lost my sight, I went to spend some time with Lex. I think my parents were relieved to have time alone so they could talk
about how to handle this. I had Mom drive me over to the mansion and drop me off.
At first it was awkward, but then Lex kissed me and told me that no matter what, he'd still love me unconditionally. He was kind of shaking.
I'm not sure what that was about, but we went up to his room and he stripped me. It was as though I was blindfolded. He touched me. Now that
I can see, I want us to do that again, only with me blindfolded. It was such a rush. I never knew where his hands were going to be next.
The first time he touched my cock, I almost jumped. It felt so incredibly sexy. I have to admit, I loved it. I was so turned on that by the
time I was naked, my cock was really hard. Then Lex walked around me and touched me and then he led me to the bed and lay me down and
climbed on top and rode me. I love the feel of my cock sliding into him. It was an incredible sensation.
I am so glad school is going to be out for the rest of the week. It's been awkward, but Pete's has been a great friend. He was there for me
when I really needed him. I'm looking forward to the next few days. I'll get to spend time with all the people who matter to me.
~
Harsh week ends well
I was blind for a few days this past week. I had this weird accident that temporarily blinded me, but I've gotten some of my sight back. I
have to wear glasses for awhile until my eyes readjust. I'm told I look okay, not nerdy at all. I did catch Pete laughing even though he
promised not to. He's been a great help to me. It was kind of embarrassing having a guide to walk me around the school while I couldn't see,
but at least I'm almost back to normal.
Thanksgiving was great. I spent it with Lex and my parents. He actually came over for dinner and then we (that being Lex and I) went back to
his place and had dessert. *wink* It was the kind of dessert with lots of whipped cream and tongues involved. I was definitely giving
thanks.
Now I'm just hanging out in the loft, doing homework and research online. It's a really cool night tonight and the stars are bright. I'm
going to do some stargazing because I haven't done that a lot lately. Pete was over for awhile. We talked. He told me about his new
girlfriend. I reassured him that I was cool with that. He seems to think that I might not be interested in hearing about his exploits with
the opposite sex since I like guys, but I was totally cool with it.
I should probably tell him about Lex soon. I don't want him to find out about it some other way. It just feels like the wrong time. I want
him to be completely comfortable with my sexuality. It's not like I throw it in his face. He does ask a question every once in a while and I
am more than happy to answer. I'm just glad he doesn't try to set me up with anybody. I think that's mostly because he wouldn't even know
who to set me up with.
I was supposed to help this guy with some schoolwork, but since I went blind for a while, I had to postpone that. I'll probably set
something up some time this week because I feel really bad that I promised I'd help him, and he's been bugging me every time we run into
each other.
I'm just happy that I can see again. I guess the glasses aren't so bad. They are kind of nice frames. I should joke to Lex that I want
something fancier, like Gucci frames.
~
New glasses and some bad fallout
This is not totally my fault. If Chloe hadn't made a pact with the devil, none of this would be happening. I do feel a little responsible,
since I told Lex what I overheard, but I am so angry at Chloe for going to Lionel and telling him she'd spy on me. She claims she was only
trying to help, but she has no idea how dangerous he is. She's so lucky he only fired her dad and she lost that column at the paper. It
could have been so much worse.
Lex read my post, and when I home from school, he had couriered over new Gucci glasses in my prescription. They are so cool and really nice.
I love them. The difference is amazing. They are totally stylin'. I had to go over to thank him.
When I got there, I was in such a good mood. We went up to his room and played. He's such a turn-on. I can't even imagine not having him in
my life this way.
I did ask Lex about Chloe's dad. He felt badly about it, but he said there was no way it could be helped. He kept me out of it. Part of me
feels badly for Chloe and her dad, but she went behind my back, and Lionel is a dangerous man. I can't even believe that she didn't think of
what the consequences might be. Now she knows for sure what they are.
I wish Lex could get away from him. I really wish there was a way I could help. Sometimes I feel so afraid, but I trust Lex. He said he
could handle it, and that he's been playing these games with his dad for years. He's such a strong person. I can't even imagine having a
father like Lionel. I shudder when I think about what he'd do if he found out about me.
I don't even want to think about that stuff anymore. I would rather think about what a wonderful night Lex and I had last night.
I am so hungry. I have to get to lunch before Chloe finds me in the Torch office. I can't talk to her right now.
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