11:33 am
I was too lazy to go back to that town
I did absolutely nothing yesterday. After Lucas woke up (he wasn't even fazed that I had stripped him naked) and showered, we played video
games for a while, and then ordered in pizza and Chinese food. We couldn't decide what we wanted so we ordered both. It was so hilarious how
every once in a while he'd turn to me and say something like 'so you and Lex did...' and make obscene hand gestures. I offered to supply
details, but he declined. Eventually I told him 'yes, Lex and I fucked a lot, and he was awesome in bed. He is a well-hung stud and I loved
his cock.'
Man, I miss his cock.
After that, Lucas stopped asking. We played games for hours. He's staying with me for a few more days then he's heading back home. He just
left, but he's coming back later so we can go out tonight. We both feel like blowing off more steam before he leaves town. I really
misjudged him. Lucas is cool. He totally hates his father, and I can get behind that. He's nothing like his brother. For one thing, he has
all that hair, and then there's the fact that he's way too blunt.
Now I am going to bathe in the sun, naked. The balcony is calling my name. I picked up a very comfortable lawn chair. It takes up the whole
balcony, but I don't care. I want to lie in the sun all day. My ass is too white.
~
04:09 am
I swear I'm seeing ghosts
I went out to the club tonight. I was supposed to meet up with Lucas, but he never showed. That's cool. He probably got distracted by
something or someone else. I didn't really care. I met up with James, who looked so hot. We stayed out for a while, dancing and drinking and
making out.
While I was there, I swear I saw somebody in the crowd who looked just like him. I looked away and then he was gone. It must have
been my imagination, but for just one second I thought for sure it was him and my heart leaped in my chest. It was probably just my mind
playing tricks on me. I want him to be alive so badly that I imagine him here in the city.
James had to get up for an early shift tomorrow, so I walked him back to his place then came home alone. I sat out on the balcony for awhile
watching the stars. They're so far away. Everything is so far away. I feel like I'll never be able to touch any of it again.
~
11:52 pm
Today
I spent most of today doing some shopping. Then I drove around for awhile just because I wanted to feel the wind in my hair. I came home
later on and ate dinner. James is here now. He stopped in after working a double shift. We fooled around for awhile. Now he's playing some
video games.
Lucas never called me back or showed up again. He's probably left town by now, or possibly in some kind of danger that he's hoping I'll save
him from. Whatever, it was fun while it lasted.
We might go out later. It depends on whether we're in the mood. James said he wants to stay in, and I'm not totally against that idea. He
looks so comfortable naked in my bed. Why bother covering up all that nice skin when I can admire it in private?
~
01:32 pm
There goes that loving feeling
Lex
I can't stop thinking about you. You haunt my dreams, and, in some cases, my life. I had a nightmare last night that you came back and told
me I wasn't good enough for you anymore. In the dream you told me that a thing like me should not be allowed to live, that I should have
stayed true to us, and because I hadn't, I would suffer for the rest of my life. Then you crumbled to dust but you didn't stop talking. You
became a voice in my head, taunting me.
Then I woke up. After that, I couldn't get back to sleep.
The city stinks. I can smell it all around me. Right now, I hate this place. I want to leave for good, and never look back. There's nothing
for me here anyway.
I wish James would just disappear. He's really starting to piss me off with his concern. The other night when he came over, I wasn't really
in the mood, but I let him blow me anyway. After I came, I just wanted him to leave but, for some reason, I couldn't even be bothered to
tell him to get out. I just lay there thinking about you. When he asked if I was okay, I told him everything was fine. I should have just
thrown him out.
When I'm with him, I close my eyes and think about you. He's nowhere near as good as you in bed. With him, I don't feel anything.
~
01:31 pm
Whatever
Yesterday was another wonderful day of leisure. I loved doing nothing all day. I am so happy I don't have to bust my ass for that idiot
farm. It's not like I ever strained myself when I was working there, but I was never appreciated by Jonathan. He treated me like a alien
jack, or whatever equipment he happened to need that day. He never once asked me how I felt about doing all that work. He just assumed. I
don't miss that one bit.
I had to take the ring off again last night. When I was out on the balcony watching the fireworks, the scar started to burn. It's annoying,
but I'm getting used to it. I just took the ring off and waited for the pain to stop, then I put it back on. I felt much better afterwards.
I forgot to eat for the last three days. I'm not even hungry. This is totally creepy. Is this another one of those freak things about me?
~
11:21 pm
The past haunts me
I went out last night to a club I've only been to a few times. I was mostly bored. Then I saw him. I saw his ghost again. I looked across
the crowded room and there he was, but when I went after him, he was gone. For a second I thought for sure it was him. But there's no way
he'd be dressed that way or be there in that place. It couldn't have been him. I wish it had been him. My eyes must have been playing tricks
on me.
I'm really starting to like this place. It's mine. I don't have to answer to anybody. I can come and go as I please. I can even jump off the
balcony if I want. I can walk around my apartment in my underwear. It seems like such a small thing, but they're all freedoms that I never
had when I was living at home. At home I was always somebody else's. I was never mine. I never belonged to me.
I just wish I had Lex here to share it all. If I did, it would be perfect, and I would never leave.
~
10:53 pm
Everybody wants me
This guy is totally pissing me off. I attract all these crazy guys. James has left me fifteen messages, begging me to call him right away.
In one of them he actually said that he loves me. Why does he keep saying it?
Now this guy is watching me. I see him and his little telescope, trained on me. How long was he watching? It's not like I'm not used to it.
I totally am. Everybody watches me and dreams. I am that good.
Pal, I'm coming for you.
~
04:55 pm
I have a new boyfriend
He's hot, he's sexy, and he's asleep in my bed right now, naked. He looks awesome in my collar. I fucked him until he was too tired to do
anything else, so he's passed out.
Last night, I went out after my peeping tom, and it turned out to be a very nice surprise. Pal and I exchanged
some interesting comments on his journal, and then he extended a warm welcome to me. I took his invitation to heart and we met up in his
office where I tore his clothes off and fucked him on his desk. He is awesome and the hottest thing ever. His body was made just for me.
He's a little nut, but I think I am totally in love all over again. Who's bad in bed now?
~
08:52 pm
Lex is alive!
I went to that building expecting... I'm not sure what. I never thought I'd find Lex very much alive. I was too shocked to say anything.
Then I did something really stupid. I took my school ring off. I don't know why I did that. I shouldn't have, because when it was off, all I
could think about was all the things I'd done these past months. All I could think about was how I had cheated on him.
I fucking cried like a baby. I felt so ashamed; I couldn't even look him in the eyes. He kissed my cheek, kissed my tears, but I couldn't do
it. I did the only thing I could do. I stepped away from him and put the ring back on. I didn't care that Lex called me a coward and told me
not to put it on. I just couldn't take it. I couldn't take the shame and the look of pain on his face.
He'd been watching me all this time. Batman saved him when I couldn't. All I could do was sit helplessly, while Bruce, a mere human, rescued
Lex. I failed him where his ex-lover did not. I bet Bruce is going to brag about that one for months.
It felt so good to throw that telescope out the window. I felt this anger with the way he was talking. He just never shuts up. He's always
analyzing things. He can't just fuck and enjoy life.
I showed him. I fucked him so hard that finally he shut up. All this time he was that guy who was taunting me. How didn't I see it? I went
back and read those comments. He's so mad. I should have been able to save him, but I don't care. He's here now and he's alive and he looks
so beautiful I could stare at him forever.
The truth is, when I put the ring back on, I felt so much better. After the awesome sex we had, I had to get him something to wear since I'd
torn his clothing to shreds. I was back in a minute with a black t-shirt and black jeans. I also brought him the collar I'd bought awhile
back. I bought it for him.
I gave the clothing to him and when he put the collar on I thought I was going to have an orgasm right there. He looked so fucking hot! I
wanted to fuck him again, but I also wanted to take him home. We went back to my place and fucked over and over again until he fell asleep
in my arms.
I don't care about the past. We can make a new life for ourselves. We're here now, the two of us, and I can't get enough of him. We fucked
so many times last night and this morning that I think even I'm getting sore. It's the best kind of pain ever. Lex is so amazing. He's a
little thinner, but he's still so amazing. He's so beautiful; I love him more than ever.
~
08:56 pm
The plan
The plan is that Pal and I are going to have sex 24/7. Considering that whenever I touch him we end up fucking
where we stand, it's a great plan.
He's so amazing. Kissing him is like the most amazing drink after a year of thirst. Holding him makes me realize that my arms have been
empty all this time.
I want us to stay here forever and never go out. We can just order in and never leave. I have everything I need here now.
We just fucked again. I came out of the shower and he was lying on my bed naked, wearing nothing but my collar. He looked so sexy. I
couldn't help but jump him. He's so awesome and incredible. I pulled off my towel and wrapped myself around him until we were both hard and
ready for it. Then I poked him with my big, thick stick until we both came really, really hard.
We're ordering in. We even talked a little. His father is an ass just like Lex's father. What a coincidence. He's been through a major
ordeal, so I'm going to have to be very gentle with him.
Screw that! He's taking it like a man. I love his ass-ets. They are all in the right place: my bed.
~
07:05 am
Last night was so awesome
I hadn't eaten in almost a week, but right after we had hot, incredible, amazing sex, Lex ordered in really spicy Thai food. He sat on the
floor by the coffee table and I fed him. It was so perfect. I could wait on him hand and foot for the rest of our lives. I loved it.
I love him.
After we ate we had hot, amazing sex again. We were both dirty. It was a good kind of dirty, but I wanted a bath, so I made up a nice
soothing bubble bath for Lex's aches and pains. We climbed in and started to kiss. I am always hard near him, so I was fucking hard as a
rock by then. He looks so amazing naked. I couldn't keep my hands off of him. His smooth, gorgeous skin demanded to be touched and his lips
begged to be kissed.
He slid onto my cock while I lay back with my arm behind my head. It was the most incredibly intimate sex I have ever had. He was laid bare
by it. I could see it in his eyes. The only thing I cared about was him. I was buried deep inside him, gently fucking him the whole time. He
jerked himself off as he rode me, and came all over my chest. He's still so tight. I gripped his hips and lifted him up so I could fuck into
him and then I came with a scream that I bet the neighbors heard.
He hasn't taken the collar off since he put it on. Fuck, I want to do it again just thinking about it. Just seeing him with it on makes me
want him.
~
07:55 am
Order in, and then have more sex
He's hot, he's sexy. He makes me horny just watching him sleep. He's asleep right now and he looks incredible, especially in nothing but the
collar. I've missed him so much. We won't talk about that at all.
Pal is amazing. We haven't done much except fuck and eat. It's the perfect weekend. I needed a break. I've been working so hard. I just
cleaned the place as fast as I could so we wouldn't have to worry about that. I want this to be perfect, and then later we can concern
ourselves with the little things in life that I find totally annoying and intrusive. He deserves perfect after everything he's been through.
I went out early this morning for coffee and croissants. There's this really nice place I know across town that has the most amazing early
morning breakfasts.
I can't say much more except that I am happier than I have been since I moved away from home.
~
02:52 pm
I took the ring off
This past weekend has been interesting. With the ring on, my inhibitions vanish as though they never existed. I feel free to do what I
please. It's not like I feel the urge to hurt or damage people and things: I just feel more confident. I like that feeling. I wish I could
feel that way all the time.
The scar started to burn earlier. After I took the ring off, we talked. Lex asked me to keep the ring off -- not directly, but he did ask me
to stay with him, so I did. I told him what happened with the scar, Jor-El, and the ship, and Mom losing the baby because of what I did. He
told me it wasn't my fault, but I know it is. None of this would have happened if it hadn't been for my actions. My dad was right about
that. I'll be paying for this for the rest of my life. Every time I hear Mom's voice, it hurts.
Lex told me that Dr. Bryce tried to bribe him with my blood. She was going to expose me and us, so Lex had to stop her, and he ended up in a
plane crash. He said he was all alone on an island all that time. I don't want to think about what he almost did. I could have lost him
forever. I should have tried to save him. I should have never stopped looking. I should have never given up on him.
After all, it was my fault that he went missing. I should have told him about the blood sample. I should never have trusted Dr. Bryce. I
promised Lex that I'd tell him everything from now on.
Lex thinks his father hired Dr. Bryce. He wants the world to think he's dead, and I'm going to do everything to help him. I want him to be
happy. I want things for us to be good.
After we talked, we kissed and that ended with us in bed. I wanted to touch him and show him how much he means to me. We took our clothes
off, and I sucked Lex off, then I jerked myself off. I felt a little exposed, but I knew it would be fine with Lex, because I knew he'd
never hurt me. I still couldn't stop myself from feeling a little embarrassed about it. I mean when I think about all the sex we've had over
the last few days, I blush. I guess we had a lot of time to make up for. I really did miss him so much, and it seems like my body missed him
a lot.
Lex fell asleep afterwards. He looked so happy. He looks amazing considering everything he's been through. He's not wearing the bracelet I
gave him. I haven't asked where it is. I think we're going back to his other place to get his things. He's moving in with me permanently.
We're going to live together in the city. I'm so excited. I can't wait to do things with him. We'll be restricted because he doesn't want to
go out and be seen, but I'm sure we can work around that.
I'm looking forward to living with him. I just hope he doesn't try to tell me to go back to my parents. I can't go back there. I just phoned
home. Mom answered, and I couldn't say anything. I hung up because I couldn't think of what to say. Lex is going to be so mad.
~
07:32 am
Turn me on
My new main guy (who is still wearing the collar I got him and asleep in my bed, naked because that makes it so much easier to have sex
whenever the mood strikes) and I went to his old place yesterday after he woke. I wore him out completely (having your cock sucked will do
that). It was a post-coital sleep. I took him for a ride on my motorcycle. He picked his things up from that dump he was living in. At least
with me, he can live in luxury. He's used to being all pampered and stuff.
He's living with me now. He lost all this weight during his ordeal and he's really slim. I want to bite his hips. They are so sexy.
I love when he moves in his sleep. It's like he knows he's being watched so he has to stay all sexy.
After we picked his things up and brought them here, I took a nice long nap. The rest of the night was filled with some fondling and drinks.
Then we both passed out in each other's arms. He's really touchy-feely. Normally I hate that because of this ugly scar, but with him, I
totally love it. I want him to touch me every chance he can. His touch is sexy and possessive. He's perfect.
~
01:56 pm
What the...
What the fuck does he think he's doing? He says he wants to stay dead. He says he wants the rest of the world to think he's dead, and then
he goes and practically tells everybody who he is. I am doing everything to keep his identity a secret, but instead he's the one who's
exposed himself. He thinks people already knew anyway. I guess him calling me angel gave the game away completely. There's no doubt now that
my new roommate is Lex. At least he's not shouting it from the rooftops.
This morning, after I showered, I joined him in the kitchen for some breakfast. He was about to make coffee when I interrupted to ask a few
questions about his little post. I warned him to be more careful about what he says. He doesn't seem to care at all that people know or have
guessed who he is.
It ended in amazing, hot sex with his ass up against the kitchen counter. I lifted him up onto the counter and tore his pants off, then I
fucked him to show him who's boss. He didn't seem to mind. After that I made us some coffee and cereal. All this sex makes me really hungry.
There's also a small part of me that gets a thrill out of watching Lex Luthor get his ass fucked then eat plain old cereal and milk. He was
so sexy while I fucked him. I think we rocked the whole kitchen.
It must be love.
~
09:20 am
I want to...
...worship every inch of his body. I want to suck his cock 24/7. I want to suck him off and see that look of ecstasy on his face every
single day.
He's so perfect with his sweaty body under me and his hands in my hair and his legs wrapped around me tightly. I could thrust into him for
hours. He feels so velvety soft, which reminds me that he's only human, so I do have to give him a break once in a while.
His cock is so hard right now. I love to watch him sleep. Moments like these are some of my favorites. When he doesn't know I'm watching and
he stretches his slim, pale body and his cock twitches, I know he's dreaming about me.
He responds to my caresses and kisses even as he dreams. Then I wake him with my tongue in his ass.
I'm becoming a sex maniac, and it's his fault. If he weren't so sexy...
~
01:57 pm
I wanted to go out last night
I was feeling antsy last night so, while Lex was in the shower, I dressed up and left him a note to let him know where I would be. I was
hoping he'd follow me and he did. Once I got to the club some girl clung to me until Lex showed up, but I wasn't interested. She was really
boring. I was so happy Lex showed up when he did. Nobody makes me feel as good as Lex does. His kisses and caresses are the most amazing.
Even when I was with James, it never even came close to how I feel when I'm with Lex.
We had to leave the club because I spotted James there, and I wasn't in the mood to deal with that part of my past, so I grabbed Lex's hand
and dragged him out of the club. We went for a short ride to my favorite gay club. Once Lex relaxed, I pulled him into a dark corner and got
down on my knees to worship his gorgeous cock. The thrill of doing it in public is a rush for me, but this time it was even more of a rush
because Lex isn't even supposed to be alive. I was so hard the whole time I sucked him off! When he came down my throat, I almost came, but
I managed to hold off.
I wanted to stay for awhile, so I danced for him and we drank for a few hours. It was the perfect night. I only had eyes for him.
We went for a ride on my motorcycle. I was so hard the whole time. I love the feel of the cycle vibrating between my legs and Lex's arms
wrapped tightly around me. I could have come right there. I was so tempted to park and give Lex the ride of his life right on the seat of
the bike. The thought made my whole body tingle. I was hard for the rest of the ride home, and with Lex's hand squeezing me through my
pants, I almost did come.
I waited for us to get back to our place, where I stripped down and stretched out on our bed. He climbed between my spread legs and he
sucked my cock until I came. It was the most amazing orgasm ever, probably because I'd waited for so long. The way he licks my shaft and
swirls his tongue around the tip makes me hard just to think about it. Everything he does to me makes me hard. How did I ever survive being
around him back in Smallville without jumping him every five seconds? He's so hot and sexy and amazing and talented.
James called this morning, and Lex answered the phone. He was not pleased, to say the least, and James must have said something because Lex
told James that he's my only fuck before asking who it was. I thought for sure that Lex would leave, but he stayed in bed with me. I told
James that it was over and that he should move on, and then I hung up. I wanted to get back to more important business. Lex was a little
hostile. He brought up the fact that I had cheated on him and that I should have been able to save him, like I can fly or something or maybe
sniff him out. Then he called me young and it wasn't fun anymore. I hate it when he brings it up. I never would have cheated if I'd known
that Lex was still alive.
I wanted to stop talking about that because those things are in the past. I told Lex I love him. He's here now and that's all that matters.
~
01:48 pm
It's done
I had a really nice night and morning. Everything was fine until James showed up. He stopped by at lunchtime to talk to me. My new
houseguest wasn't in the room, but he heard the whole conversation. I was wearing the ring when he stopped by. I did tell him it was over
between us. He was a little upset. James is a nice guy and I didn't want to hurt his feelings, so I said I'd see him around.
Pal wasn't happy about this. He told me to fuck off, and then left. I don't know if he'll be back. If he doesn't come back soon, I'm going
out to look for him.
I had to take the ring off again. It hurts too much. Everything hurts too much.
~
06:58 pm
Road trip!
Pal and I are going on a road trip. We need to get out of town and have some fun. We're headed out on my cycle and we are taking no
prisoners!
~
05:34 pm
We're here.
On Friday night, I saw the most awesome car in a dealership window. I wondered how much is that car in the window, the one with the shiny
finish and pretty Diablo on the hood. I robbed some bank machines of enough cash for the car and went back to the dealership. The nice lady
helped me out, and in less than an hour I was the owner of a new silver Lamborghini Diablo.
I love this car. Lex and I got in and drove for hours. Since I don't get tired, I did all the driving. Now we are in California and we are
having fun. We went out to a gay club Saturday night. The club was wild. We could kiss and touch in public and nobody gave us grief.
Unfortunately, some guy had to spoil our fun when he touched Lex. I stepped in, pulled his hands off of Lex, and informed him that Lex was
mine, and that he should watch who he touches. I pointed out Lex's collar to show that he's owned. I broke the guy's hand when he tried to
smart mouth me. He shouldn't have touched Lex.
Before that, Lex and I were having such a great time. I danced while Lex watched. I love when he watches me. I've always loved when he
watched me from the moment we met. His eyes on me sent tingles through my whole body. I was just too naive way back when to realize what it
meant. It's a good thing I grew up; otherwise I'd still be waiting for something to happen. I was such a dork.
I was so angry that I wanted to smash that guy's head in, so we left the club. We drove around until I found a beach. Lex calmed me down.
After that we walked for a while near the water then had sex on the beach. It was awesome.
We managed to find a place to stay that was right on the beach. It's really nice. We're here right now. I took a few seconds later Saturday,
while Lex was otherwise occupied, and called Bruce to thank him for finding Lex. Bruce wasn't around so I left a message with his butler
guy. I wonder how he'll react when he gets that message. I've been keeping up on Batman and Robin's adventures. They're really busy all the
time. I guess there are a lot of bad guys in Gotham.
It was a really quiet day today. I spent all morning watching Lex. He looked so perfect lying on the white sheets of the bed. I stared at
him for a long time. He finally got uncomfortable and asked what I was trying to find. I wasn't trying to find anything; I already found
what I want. I love Lex so much, sometimes when I look at him I feel like I could get lost in his eyes. I could have stared at him all day.
We're going back to Metropolis soon. I wish we could stay here. Not in this house since we don't really own it, but here on the beach away
from the rest of the world where nobody can tell me what to do or who I should be. It was nice to walk around naked and sunbathe and swim
whenever I felt like it. I want to do this again for sure.
I don't think Lex liked it as much as I did. It was probably all that sun. His delicate skin can't take the sun the way my skin can. I've
never burned and it takes a lot of exposure for me to get a decent tan. It must be my alien skin.
~
11:07 pm
We're back
Lex drove for the first half of the trip, and I took over after we stopped to get something to eat. He was very quiet for most of the ride.
I think he must have been contemplating what to do next, because I could practically see the gears turning in his head. I was sure that if I
x-rayed him, I would see actual gears. I wonder if maybe we should do this every weekend. I'm going to ask him for sure. Maybe we could just
get in the car and drive anywhere. I don't really care where. Now that we have this lovely car bought with all that lovely stolen money, it
would be so much easier.
I was happy to be back in familiar surroundings. We just had the most awesome shower sex. I pulled Lex in close to me with his back pressed
to my chest and soaped him up. Then I stroked his gorgeous hard cock until he came all over my hand. Of course that totally made me horny. I
was hard the whole time with my cock pressed against his ass --I couldn't resist. I bent him forward and fucked him in the shower. I want to
do it again and again.
I feel so amazingly relaxed right now. Lex has already drifted off to sleep with a smile on his beautiful face. I want it to be this way
forever.
With a ton of cash and nobody to bother us, maybe it can be.
~
12:27 pm
I've been deprived
This morning sucked ass. I woke up and immediately had to take this stupid ring off. As soon as the pain stopped, I put it back on. Pal was
getting dressed when it happened. He's so sexy even when he's doing something like dressing. I was happily watching him slip into his
boxers, content to watch his ass disappear into the cotton fabric, knowing I'd be ripping them off him any moment because I was horny.
Last night's shower sex gave me all kinds of fantasies. I dreamed that we were trapped in a shower naked, with nothing but a bar of soap. It
wasn't really a dream. We weren't trapped in the shower last night, but it would have been cool, because then he'd be naked all the time and
we could have lots and lots of hot sex.
I kept imagining the feel of his hands on me and when I opened my eyes he was getting dressed. Then the scar burned and after I put the ring
back on, Pal finished dressing and left to go for a walk. We didn't even have sex before he left which totally sucks because I was still
horny. I ate breakfast alone.
He's acting all weird. Maybe we should move to another city. That might cheer him up.
~
03:34 pm
Now that was an adventure
I could kill Edge and be done with it. He's really starting to bug me now. Last night Lex and I went out to the club. After he came back
from his walk, we had a talk. He was really spaced out. I think he might be suffering from some kind of mind thing from being on that
island. I tried to reassure him that everything with us was good. He's more fragile than I thought. I'll have to be careful with him. I
don't want to damage him more. His father did enough for two lifetimes.
I'm not sure what he meant when he said he wanted all of me. I'm right here. Nobody else has my attention but him. I give him everything. We
almost had a fight, but then things were fine. Once we kissed and moved to the bedroom for sex, everything was just fine. He seemed fine.
After the sex, we fell asleep in each other's arms.
Then we went out to the club, and some of Edge's men approached me to ask me to meet with their boss right there. He owns the club, and must
have been waiting for me. I pushed Lex out of the way so he could hide behind me. I didn't want him to get caught. When the fight moved
outside, things got a little out of hand, but I can't let them see Lex. Since Edge knows Lionel, chances are he knows Lex.
One of the guys managed to pull Lex's hood off in the struggle. I was kicking somebody else's ass when it happened so I'm not sure how long
it was off, and I don't know if they know Lex. The state of Kansas knows Lex so they may know who he is.
I told one of Edge's thugs to give Edge the message that I'd go to him if and when I was ready to deal. He better send that message, or I'm
going to send it in person for sure.
I don't get why he sent his men. I already told him I wasn't interested in his stupid deal. I don't need cash and I don't want to be
bothered.
I'm just glad Lex is okay. If one of those guys tells Edge about Lex, then I can deal with it when it happens.
~
03:35 pm
Holy fuck!
I fucking flew! I flew to China and back in less than five hours. FUCK!
Lex and I had the most amazing morning. We woke up and got dressed, and I decided today was going to be a great day, so I took him out to
breakfast. That was amazing. We talked about everything and nothing. On the walk home, he asked me if we could run the next time we went on
a trip. He doesn't want to take a car. He wants me to carry him. He wants us to run where we're going. I've never really done that before,
but I told him we could try.
Then it happened. Just as we arrived at our place, I heard this deafening ringing in my ears. It wasn't like anything I'd ever heard before.
This was different. I couldn't resist it. I told Lex not to go anywhere, and then I shot straight up into the sky. I flew! I fucking flew. I
didn't stop until I got to China. When I landed, I had to find the source of this horrible ringing, and I had to stop it.
I was drawn to some kind of temple where these guys were worshiping some statue thing. I couldn't get close enough to grab what was causing
the ringing, because there was fucking green Kryptonite embedded in the eyes. The temple looked old. How the fuck did the rocks get all the
way over there? The only time I've ever seen them is in Smallville, not that I've been farther than the city until today. Those rocks came
with me to earth. There is no way they could be in this old temple I'd never heard of.
I found what was making the noise. It was some rock that shot out of the temple right into my hand. As soon as that happened, these guys
came after me. I couldn't understand a word they said, but I got the distinct impression they were not happy I was stealing their stone. I
didn't care about that. I just wanted the ringing to stop.
Unfortunately, I didn't get away from them fast enough. They came after me with swords that had green meteor rocks for handles. I hate
swords.
They cut me up before I could get away from them. Then the guys took the stone from me. I managed to crawl away from the temple and drag my
ass outside. Unfortunately, one of the sword guys followed me and stayed close enough that I couldn't recover from the green rock.
Lucky for me there were some other people who came along and fought the bad guys. After kicking some ass, they gave the stone back to me. I
have no idea what they told me to do with it, but I thanked them and shot back up into the sky because all I could think about was the fact
that I had taken off on Lex again.
It's so amazing up there above the clouds. I flew straight up and got a very clear view of the earth from above. I guess this means I'm not
afraid of heights anymore, and gravity doesn't work for me. All those times I floated, I thought it was because I was horny.
I am a fucking freak!
I gave the stone to Lex and told him I wanted nothing to do with it.
~
04:18 pm
Unexpected trip
I went on an unexpected trip today. Unfortunately, I had no time to explain things to Pal. Once I got back, I told him where I'd been and
everything was okay. It totally freaked both of us out, but some things just can't be helped. I got a little messy during the trip, but Pal
cleaned me up. All the touches turned into kisses. Then the kisses turned into awesome sex. He always makes me feel so amazing. He always
knows all the right spots to hit, and all the right words to say to keep me grounded.
Those are just some of the reasons I know he's perfect for me.
~
09:42 pm
I am freaking out right now.
I flew in the air with only my body. It was just me with nothing beneath me but air. I told Lex everything that happened in China as he
cleaned the dried blood from my chest. I'm just glad I could get away from those guys. At least the cuts healed before I got back to Lex.
I fucking flew. How the hell am I ever going to be normal now? Humans can't fly without a plane. I remember when Lex and I first met, and he
asked me if I believed a man could fly. I told him no. I think I'm going to have to change that answer to a resounding yes. YES! Lex,
somebody can fly and that somebody is me.
Freaky Clark Kent aka Kal-El from the long dead planet Krypton can fly without a plane. Fuck, the earth is huge.
Thanks, Dad! You fucking bastard.
~
06:48 pm
Lex went out
I'm alone for the first time in a while. Lex went out earlier to do some research. He took a picture of the stone and left so I think he's
going to try to find out what it is. It has to be from my home world. The stone has a symbol on it and it's the same symbol burned into my
chest.
I had to take my school ring off, and I haven't put it back on yet. That was a few hours ago. I'm torn. I don't know what to do. On the one
hand I'm overwhelmed by the feeling that there's no going back. I can't go home. I can't stay here like this.
I'm so glad I have Lex with me.
I stared at that stone for a while, trying to figure out what the heck it is and why it called to me and how the heck I flew. I guess that's
just another one of the things I can do. At least when I was up there in the clouds, I didn't have time to think about what was happening to
me. I just did it and now I stare out into the city and I stand on the balcony of my apartment and look up in the sky and there is no way I
am going up there.
I'm afraid. I've never been so afraid before, not even when I've been was incapacitated by the green Kryptonite rocks have I felt fear like
this. What if I am unstoppable? What if no matter how hard I fight it, I can never escape my destiny?
I have to have faith that Lex will figure this out. I know he will. He's smart and he's here with me. He loves me still even after I took
off on him like that. I asked him yesterday after we had sex if it freaked him out that I flew. He thought it was cool.
I don't want to take over the world. I don't want something to take over me and force this destiny I want no part of on me. I just want to
be me, Clark Kent, plain Kansas boy. I don't want anybody to tell me what to do with my life.
I left the ring in the bathroom. Maybe I can keep it off. I know Lex wants me to. I hope Lex gets back soon.
~
08:22 am
This weekend
...is all about relaxation. Pal and I have barely gotten out of bed. Last night we ordered in pizza, and then we watched QAF all night long.
Then we re-enacted many of the onscreen scenes. My favorite was when I rimmed him until he screamed for mercy. I don't think I've ever heard
him beg quite that way before, but it was a very dignified begging.
I gave him what he wanted. We had the most amazing sex on the balcony. After we moved back into the bedroom, we stayed naked and watched
some more episodes. I jerked off later while he watched. I think I've become an exhibitionist, because I loved it when he watched me.
He's asleep right now, but I plan to wake him up with my big, thick stick. Right after I get us some coffee, I am going to beg him to stay
in bed with me all day long.
~
12:49 pm
I have stones (right here between my legs)
My weekend was so amazing. I should live this way all the time. Pal and I stayed in, fucked, sucked and licked our way into paradise. I was
in heaven. Yesterday I couldn't convince him that we should live this way forever. He wanted to go out, so he did and he didn't come home
until late last night. I waited up for him so we could continue our nice, friendly weekend. He was tired. He'd spent all day doing research.
What's to know? That thing I brought home is not more important than me. It sucks. I hate it and I wish I could forget that I ever flew to
get it. Whatever possessed me has to die. I wish I could kill it, but it's inside of me. I try hard to avoid that, and no matter what, it
always comes back to haunt me.
Two can play at that game. This scar will not control me. This thing will not control me. I wouldn't let Jonathan control me, and there is
no way in hell I am going to let that bastard who thinks he is my biological father control me.
Pal went out again today. I tempted him with my body, but that only worked for a few hours, then he said he had some work to do. That's
cool. I know he has a lot on his mind.
~
01:03 pm
He's gone
He left sometime this morning while I slept.
Last night, he got home late from his investigation. I am really beginning to hate that stupid rock. I want to smash it into a million
pieces, but I bet it's like me: unbreakable. As soon as he walked in the door, I slammed it behind him and seduced him. I stripped us both
naked and kissed him all over, then I pulled us both over to the bed and fucked him with everything I had. He can take it, and he took it
well last night. I led us both down the path of ecstasy. He came with a cry of passion and I screamed out my own. I would fuck him forever
if he'd let me. I love to be in him, thrusting deep, pulling him closer until we almost pass out from pleasure.
It was fucking awesome. I missed him so much while he was away. I told him so. I spent the day waiting for him to return to me. I wanted him
to be here in the morning, but he had other plans.
After the mind-blowing sex, I cleaned us both up and he ordered in Italian. I was starved. I hadn't eaten all day so I wolfed down my own
meal, and then sneaked some of Lex's food.
We settled into bed, and everything was fine until that fucking scar started to burn again. Right there with Lex beside me, I cringed in
pain. It was humiliating. I never wanted him to be so close to me when it happened, but he was, and he reached out and touched my burning
scar as I lay there incapacitated from the searing pain. He took the ring off of my finger, and I wasn't me anymore. I was him. I was shame
and fear and every bad feeling in between.
I turned away from Lex and pulled on a shirt to cover up the scar. He asked me a few question as I sat there waiting for the pain to stop.
It wasn't the pain from the scar or the ring that I felt; it was the pain of the things I'd done to bring me to this point. I don't want to
feel that way. He asked why I put the ring back on every time it has to come off, and I didn't lie. I told him it makes me feel better.
I tried so hard to explain to him why I have to wear the ring. He told me that it was my choice what I did, and then he went into the other
room. I know it doesn't make him happy, but I put the ring back on.
I wiped the tears from my eyes, and everything was fine.
Now Lex is gone, and I'm not really sure if he'll come back to me. If he doesn't come back, I know for sure that I will probably go after
him and force him to stay with me, because we are forever. There is no way I am going to let these things about my alien heritage fuck
things up.
He better come back to me, or I can't be held responsible for what I do.
~
10:45 am
I am having a really bad day so far
Pal went out early yesterday morning while I was asleep, and he hasn't returned. He's fucking dumped me -- I just know it. That fuck! After
everything I did for him... After everything I did to him... I made him feel wanted and loved and I gave him everything. What does he do in
return? He goes off to hell knows where without a word to me. I can't call him because there's no way for me to call him.
I am so pissed off right now. He better come home now or something really bad will happen.
I waited up all night for him, and I even went looking for him at one point. Obviously I did not find him.
~
12:21 pm
I totally overreacted
Pal came home yesterday around lunchtime. I totally overacted to his absence. I don't like that he's become so obsessed with this thing I
brought back from China, but there's nothing I can do to stop him. It totally pisses me off that I am jealous of a stupid stone. It's taking
up all his spare time.
After he got back, we had a big fight. I was so upset and angry, and I thought he was gone for good. He was gone once before -- it could
happen again. I told him never to do that again. I'm pretty sure he realized how upset I was over his sudden disappearance. He could have at
least called to tell me he'd be late. It turned out he found some kind of clue and got caught up in that. He lost track of time and fell
asleep where he was. I know he can get all obsessed about things, so I have to just accept that this is the way he is.
After I calmed down, we relaxed for a while. He spent all his time doing more research, only it was at home this time. It must be something
huge. I don't really care. I told him before I wanted nothing to do with that thing.
I went out to the club after he fell asleep. I was bored. I met up with James who looked really happy to see me. We danced for awhile and
then I brought him home. It's not like I was going to fuck him. I was just having some fun. So what if I kissed James a few times? I wasn't
going to sleep with him.
Pal flipped out and grabbed James. I thought he was going to throttle him. It was kind of funny to watch. I asked James to leave, and he
left without another word.
I guess that wasn't one of the smartest choices I've made, but I don't care. Pal is so obsessed over that stupid thing. I want to be his
obsession - only me, nothing else.
Man, writing all this here makes me so mad.
Pal got all pouty and immediately pulled out some booze, so I left him to his bottle and took a shower, then went to bed. I couldn't sleep.
Eventually Pal joined me and we fell asleep together. I held him in my arms and reassured him that we are forever. He has nothing to worry
about. Can't he see that? No matter who else I'm with or have been with, he's the one.
Maybe he's insecure. I should do something nice for him to take his mind off things. Or maybe he's still not all there because of what
happened to him on that island. I could go after his dad for him. That might make him feel better.
I'll have to think about all this.
~
09:58 pm
Another amazing weekend
I'm really starting to love my weekends. We stayed in most of the time, except today I felt like going for a ride, so we hopped on my cycle
and rode out of the city to a really nice secluded spot. It was such a beautiful day, I felt like being out in the sun. I stripped down to
my briefs and lay out in the sun. Pal isn't a sun worshiper the way I am, but he looked gorgeous under the shade of the oak tree.
My briefs didn't stay on long. We had the most amazing, slow sex under the shade of a tree. I should have done this more often when we were
home in hick town. I loved the feel of sunshine on my bare ass. It felt great to kiss him slowly and slide my hand down his pants.
In fact, thinking about it makes me want to do it all over again, only in our bed.
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