Freak4ever: Destiny

January 2007

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05 - 10:04 pm

I met this guy on New Years Eve.  

I wasn't planning on going out this New Year, but then plans changed. I ended up going to a party in the city. I even wore a black tuxedo to the party. I went alone, but I didn't leave alone. The party wasn't very exciting until I saw him across the room. He walked toward me and we met and then we left together. Words were never spoken between us.

I was easy and we went up to his private place. He couldn't get my clothes off fast enough, and as we crashed through his darkened apartment, tossing our torn shirts and crumpled ties aside. We never spoke and as our mouths met for the first time that night, I was harder than I'd ever been. It was amazing and I was insatiable. I could have gone all night long. He lasted long enough to sate my appetite and then some.

It would have all been perfect if I hadn't spotted Jason at the party just before I spotted Lex. It threw me off that he was there. I guess I should have expected that. He does work for Lex now.

I ran into Jason at the Talon today. I was hanging out with Chloe, Lana and Lois when he came over to our table to say hello. I don't know why, but as soon as I saw him my stomach knotted up. Don't get me wrong, he was nice to me, but there was this subtle hint of something that bothered me. It's probably because of his past relationship with Lex. I know I shouldn't let that bother me, and Lex is with me, but something about Jason bugs me.

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08 - 09:44 pm

Worst weekend ever.  

I spent all weekend at the hospital. My dad had a heart attack on Saturday. He's been at the medical center all weekend and he's in stable condition. He woke up early Saturday to do the chores while I slept in like a lazy ass and when I went out to bring him a drink and some cookies mom had made, I found him on the floor of the barn.

I overheard him tell my mom the night before he had the heart attack that he was feeling tired and overworked. I should have done that work. It's been the worse weekend ever. My mom is still at the hospital. I came home to do the chores and take a break. Mom said I was looking beat up and she ordered me to come home to get some rest. I never get tired, but I am tonight. I feel so run down and useless. If I hadn't found my dad... I don't even want to think about what would have happened. Every terrible thought that I could have has already crossed my mind a million times this weekend. If it wasn't for my mom and Lex, I probably wouldn't even be this coherent.

Lex has been there from the moment I called him on Saturday to tell him what had happened. He came to the hospital right away and he held my mom's hand while the doctor told us how my father was doing. He even got my dad the best specialists and took care of everything. I'd be lost without him.

I had a talk with Dad just before I left. He was talking like he's not going to come home, but I refused to allow him to speak that way. I told him he better come home because I still need him. We all still need him. He told me I have to be the head of the house now. I told him "no sir, that's your job."

I need to go. Lex is coming over to help me with chores. Actually, he's not coming over to help, but I want him to be here and he's agreed to come over.

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15 - 10:19 pm

It's been a long few weeks  

I feel totally burned out. I've been working almost nonstop since Dad had the heart attack. It's been very tiring, and between work, school, and Lex, I have almost no time for anything else. I actually fell asleep in class the other day. I've never felt so run down before.

Mom keeps telling me to take it easier, but I just want to make it so that when Dad comes home at the end of the week, he won't have to worry about doing anything around the farm. I want him to recover. The doctor said he needs all the rest he can get and knowing my dad, he won't listen. He's so stubborn, but I told my mom that I won't let Dad work too hard.

Mom's been handling things well. She's with my dad as much as they'll allow, which is a lot. I don't mind having to fend for myself. I'm learning how to cook just about everything. I even made dinner for Lex the other night and I didn't end up killing him. It wasn't really anything special, but he acted like it was the best food he'd ever eaten. I really appreciate him even more at moments like that.

Chloe has been by a few times. She's been amazing to have around. She always seems to be able to make me laugh when I least expect it. I love her so much and wouldn't know what I'd ever do without her friendship. She stayed over the other night when she stopped by for a movie night because it was really late and she passed out on the sofa.

In other news, Lex checks up on me every day. I keep saying it, but I am so lucky to have him. He keeps me grounded.

Now I am going to pass out in front of the TV. I am totally beat.

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16 - 12:41 pm

I'm sick  

At least Lex thinks so. I woke up this morning still tired. I only managed to get a few hours sleep. I've never really needed more than that, but now it feels like I may. I was working in the barn on rebuilding a step that had broken when Lex showed up to see how I was doing. Then it happened. I sneezed. It wasn't just an ordinary sneeze. Since I'm not ordinary, and nothing about me ever has been (besides the fact that I look human), I sneezed so hard, the barn doors flew off. Luckily Lex wasn't standing in the way. He'd just walked in a few seconds before it happened and stepped aside just before I sneezed. I could have blown him away and not in a good way.

It was horrible. For a second, I thought I'd really hurt Lex. He was stunned into silence, but other than that, he wasn't harmed. It doesn't get better. Right after it happened, Chloe walked into the barn. She asked if we'd felt the odd breeze. My heart was racing. I was terrified she'd seen something, but she wasn't acting like she'd just witnessed a freaky barn door flight.

She had stopped in to see how I was doing and to ask if there was anything she could do to help. Lex quickly talked her into leaving. Once she was gone, we went inside and Lex ordered me to get some rest. I am really sick. I keep sniffling, and I just keep hoping I don't sneeze again. Lex said he'd retrieve the doors. He left just a while ago to do some work and other stuff.

I feel miserable. I've never been sick before. The only other times I've really even felt any illness was when I was near the meteor rocks. I did stumble on some over the weekend while doing some work. I might have inhaled meteor dust. I probably should have told Lex about that, but since I was able to get away from the area on my own, with much pain, I didn't see the point in bugging him with what happened. He'd only worry about me. I guess that doesn't matter. He's worried about me now anyway.

Since I'm an alien, we weren't sure what to give me when I have what seems to be a cold, so Lex and I heated some left over chicken soup my Mom had made, and he watched me eat all of it.

I asked Lex not to tell my mom. She has enough to worry about without worrying about my freak sneezes, although I guess she's going to notice something is up when she sees the barn doors gone. I'm going to have to fix that before Dad gets home from the hospital. Mom is there right now.

Lex ordered me not to do anything until he gets back, but stuff needed doing and nobody else is going to do it. I'm going to try to get some light work done around the house. I don't want my mom to have to worry about whether the dishes or laundry are done.

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20 - 11:15 pm

I'm having way too much fun with this.

The great news is, my dad is home from the hospital. The bad news is, my parents found out about the barn doors and the supersonic sneeze that destroyed them. I told them that I didn't want to worry them. After everything Dad's been through lately with the heart attack and being in the hospital, I didn't want him or Mom to be thinking of anything but Dad's health.

I feel much better today. I told my parents that the barn door was an accident. I tried to hide the fact that I have what seems like a cold, but it was kind of hard to hide it from them when I sneezed at dinner last night. Needless to say, the whole kitchen suffered the consequences of hurricane Clark. My parents were not happy that I didn't tell them about this new development. They understood why I didn't want to worry them, but they insisted that I tell them when these things happen. I think part of it was that Dad's a little upset that I went to Lex first. I don't think he's upset that I confided in Lex. I think he just isn't used to the idea that I have someone else in my life that I can go to about my alien secrets.

Lex showed up right after it happened. He and my father put their heads together and now I can blow on things really, really hard. I can blow clouds away. I did it today as practice. There is no end to the number of jokes that can be made about that one. Next time Lex says blow me, I'll have to ask him to clarify.

After we played around with my new breath, Lex and I went to the mansion. I was hungry for his body, so we went up to his rooms, but before we could get to his bedroom, I blew the doors shut and tore his clothes off. I couldn't wait to touch his skin and get down on my knees to blow him in a different way. It felt great to suck him off. I could lose myself in the feel and taste of Lex's cock as he fills my mouth.

We moved to his bed where I begged him to fuck me. He pushed into me and when I closed me eyes, I could pretend that I was normal. Beneath Lex, I was just Clark, his lover and his sexual release. It was a blissful reprieve and I buried myself in Lex's world.

After our mutual climaxes, we lay in bed. I was lost in the thought of running to the kitchen for pie and ice cream when I looked over to find Lex staring at me. Normally, I'd feel really self-conscious at that, but the look in his eyes said it all. I told him that I love him and he said "ditto."

I went home at six this morning and started on the chores. For now, Dad is listening to the doctor's advice and taking it easy. I did manage to fix the barn doors. Since it was my fault that they were destroyed, I felt it was my duty to fix them.

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23 - 12:50 pm

Things are getting better

I'm busier than ever before, but I don't mind. It keeps my mind occupied and I don't have to think too much.

My dad is home from the hospital. He's much better, but he has been ordered to rest by his doctors. This morning I woke up extra early to find him out in the field. He was just standing there staring at the horizon. We had a long talk about so many things. He said he can't sit still while I do all the work, and I told him I want to do the work, but he insisted on helping me. I couldn't argue with him, but I did do all the heavy lifting. I caught him watching me at one point when he grew tired and rested for a second. He had this look in his eyes. I think it was pride. I hope it was. It's so weird. I feel like the luckiest person in the world for having him as a father. He and my mom chose me. They took on the burden of raising me. I can't ever repay them for how much they've done for me.

Dad tired out after an hour and I insisted he go inside to rest. He actually listened to me. After I finished the morning chores, I went in for breakfast to find him asleep on the sofa. Mom was a little upset that he'd gone out to do work, but I reassured her that I'd never let anything happen to him, and I won't. If I have to tie him down to get him to obey his doctor's orders, that's what I'll do.

In other news, I'm not sick anymore. Lex and I had some time alone on the weekend. It was fantastic. Now he's busy with work and other stuff, so I haven't really talked to him since.

Chloe came over last night to have dinner with us. She sort of invited herself over, I think. During English class, we were talking about my dad and stuff and then suddenly I was telling her she should come over for dinner and then there she was on our doorstep, reminding me of the invite. It was nice to have her over.

After dinner she and I went up to my loft and talked some more. She mostly talked and I nodded a lot. I should have been more talkative, but I wasn't really in the mood. It was nice to have her there. I love Chloe. She's like a sister I never had. At one point she got very serious and almost started to cry. She misses her dad. I held her in my arms and told her that I'd always protect her.

Today when I walked into the Torch office, Chloe was back to her usual hyper self. She has a lead on something and we're supposed to investigate it together after school. I'm looking forward to it.

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24 - 06:29 pm

That hurt!

I got home late last night because Chloe and I were following her lead about another meteor-infected person. It's never going to end. All these people changed by those rocks. I hate it. Chloe was fearless. She's so brave. She doesn't have the advantages I have, and yet she's willing to go to almost any lengths to expose these people. I'd even say that last night she was very eager to find Brad. That was the guy we were looking for. She was sure Brad could blend into any surface and make himself practically invisible. He was using his ability to rob people's houses. He took it one step too far last night when he tried to kill a man after the guy surprised him.

Chloe and I chased Brad down, but he got away last night. Then today, he showed up again. He went after Chloe. Luckily, I found them and managed to fight him off. He had strength that almost matched mine. Chloe had already been knocked unconscious when I arrived at the abandoned warehouse. Brad had hit her really hard. I was furious when I saw blood on her face. Brad said he was going to kill us both, but I shocked him when I threw him twenty feet across the room. Then he shocked me by dropping a ton of concrete on my head. I wasn't hurt or anything, but it was totally annoying and my best shirt was ruined. I managed to push my way out, and found that Chloe was still there. She'd woken up in time to see Brad run off. Chloe called the police, and I went after Brad. I caught him and the police came. Chloe had called them on her cell phone just before Brad knocked her out.

I'm just glad Chloe's okay. I can't believe how insane Brad was. He was ranting about how much he hated me and how he was going to make sure me and my girlfriend never saw the light of day again. It's like the rocks turn people insane. Brad's in police custody now. Chloe should be safe. She asked a few questions like why my clothes were so torn and how I got away from someone so strong. I told her I got lucky and that knowing failure would have meant her death motivated me. I think that was enough for her.

We came back to the farm to clean up, and now Chloe's asleep on my bed. She was exhausted. I was going to call Lana to let her know that Chloe was okay, but Chloe asked me not to. I'm not sure why. She said things were fine between them. I can only suspect that maybe Chloe doesn't want to worry her girlfriend.

My parents are in the city to see a doctor for Dad. They're staying there overnight, so I'm going to make dinner for Chloe and me and we're going to hang out together tonight.

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 27 - 11:17 pm

The hell!

I get that Lex is a busy guy. I get that he runs a huge company and has people working for him. I get all that, but when he goes away on business for the weekend, why does he have to lie to me? He said he'd be away for a few days on some "boring" business trip. That part is true, but he neglected to mention that he'd be going on this trip with Jason.

I had coffee with Chloe and Lana at the Talon after school yesterday and Lex's assistant Molly was there. I asked her if Lex got off on his trip okay, and she said that Lex and Jason took off in the Luthor jet yesterday just fine. Why would Lex forget to mention the part about Jason joining him on the trip? I get that he doesn't have to tell me everything about his life, but seriously, I was a little upset when I heard, but maybe I don't have a right to be upset. The more I think about it, the more it bothers me. I don't trust Jason for a second. He touched Lex the way only I am allowed to touch him, and he doesn't know that Lex is not just my boyfriend, but my husband.

I guess I'll have to talk to Lex when I see him. He's not answering his cell phone. He's probably too busy to get to the phone and I have no idea where he is. Molly wouldn't tell me where the plane was going. I think she doesn't like me, which is odd because I've never done anything to her.

After the Talon, Chloe needed to get something at the Torch office so she, Lana and I drove over to school and while we were there Chloe and Lana started talking about how Chloe has a tendency to get herself into danger. It escalated into an argument and when I tried to leave the room to give them privacy, Chloe insisted I stay. It was really uncomfortable. They both tried to get me to take their side of the argument. Lana said she was scared that Chloe would get seriously hurt on one of her outings, and Chloe said she can take of herself. Then she dragged me into it by pointing out that I'd always be there to save her. Next thing I knew, Lana was yelling at me and Chloe was crying and Lana stormed out, saying she couldn't take it anymore.

I don't think they've broken up, but Chloe came home with me afterwards, and she's still here. We ate a tub of rocky road and watched movies together last night. She said she can't go back to the Talon, so she's crashing in the guest room until the whole thing blows over. Lana did call my cell phone today, but only to make sure Chloe was okay. I figure after a few days, they'll calm down and want to talk. Until then, I'll be hanging out with Chloe. She and my Mom made cookies and I ate almost all of them. They were delicious.

My Dad is doing really well. He's taking it easy and letting Mom and I do all the work. He comes out for a short while to watch me work, but mostly he just orders me around. I don't mind. It's kind of nice. I'm just so glad to have him with me.

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