The week drags on
It hasn't been such a great week. My parents were very understanding, but when Dad got me alone, he told me that I
shouldn't do anything to help break Lex out of where he was. I was frank with him. I told him that it was on my mind to do that. He feels
it's an L family matter that I have no business getting into the middle of.
Despite what my dad said, I still tried to see Lex, but the doctors at Belle Reve told me that nobody was allowed to see Lex except his
father. I bet his dad put me on the list of people to keep out. I didn't even catch a glimpse of Lex. I was hoping that I would, but I
promised Lex I'd be really careful about how I use my abilities. Besides, there are cameras everywhere in that place.
Lionel's been at the mansion a few times in the past week. I wonder what he's doing there. I know he owns the place, but he was never really
there all that much. I hope Lex got rid of all that stuff in that room. It would totally suck if Lionel found those things. I also hope Lex
put the key to the ship someplace safe. I know it's almost completely useless and I don't have the ship anymore, but knowing Lionel, he'd
figure things out.
I'm going to go demand that Lionel let me see Lex.
School doesn't start up again until next week. I haven't even bothered to try to see Lana again. Mom thinks she was just upset and that
she'll get over it. How do you get over almost dying? I doubt she'll forget that I was responsible for what happened to her anytime soon.
It's cool. I know Chloe is at her side, and Pete has gone to see her. He said she was a little surprised to see him and accused him of
trying to be my eyes and ears. He told me he did tell her that I feel horrible about what happened. I really do. I never wanted any of this
to happen. I'm going to concentrate on trying to see Lex. Right now that is the most important thing to me.
FUCK!! I want Lex here right now. I miss him so much, and I wake up shaking thinking of what that fucking bastard is doing to him. I had a
nightmare that Lex came home and he didn't remember me anymore. He'd forgotten all about us and when I tried to remind him, he told me to
get out of his life forever. I hate my nightmares.
~
It's no use
I've gone to Belle Reve every day since Lex was taken away to try to get in to see him, but it's no use. I can't get
in. I even watched the mansion to try to get Lionel alone. I finally managed to talk to him. He told me not to bother Lex. He claimed that I
was part of the reason Lex was in the asylum.
He was such a jerk, treating me as though I wasn't even there as soon as he dismissed me. I wanted to grab him and shake him until he gave
me what I wanted. I should have. Then he called security to escort me out. I left on my own.
My dad told me today that I should just wait it out. Wait what out? I can't just leave Lex there. I should break him out. Then we could go
someplace together. We could do it.
Chloe stopped by to see how I was doing. She said Lana is still in the hospital and it will be weeks before she's released. She might not be
able to walk right again. It's not good. I just hope one day she can forgive me.
Now I need to burn off some steam. I am so tense right now, I could smash a barn in.
~
This has to be a nightmare
I wish I had Lex here. He'd know what to do, but if he were here, I wouldn't even be thinking about this.
I have to admit, I haven't tried to see Lex for the last few days. It's no use. His father is determined to keep me away from Lex. I went to
the mansion last night, and Mr. Big was there. He didn't ask me to leave this time. He actually invited me to sit with him, and I was on my
best behavior. We talked and he hinted that maybe we could come to a mutual agreement. He told me to come back on Thursday to talk to him
about what I could do for him in return for his allowing me to see Lex.
I don't trust him for a second and he totally gives me the creeps, but I will do just about anything to see Lex. I have to get in there and
make sure he's okay. His dad told me he's being well taken care of and that he needs time to recover, but I want to see him with my own
eyes.
I'm going over tomorrow after school.
I still haven't talked to Lana. Chloe said she's recovering and that I should just give her time. My mom says the same thing. She's been to
see Lana. Everybody's been to see her but me. I'll stay away just like she asked. I want to go check on her and make sure she's okay, but
it's better this way.
I wish Lex were here. I really miss him.
~
I'm back from seeing Lex's dad
I went to the mansion, but the security told me Lex's dad was at the caves. I went to the caves and he was there. He
made this speech about historical stuff and how he and I were a lot alike. He totally creeps me out, but I had to play along so he'd agree
to let me see Lex. Then he put his hand on my shoulder and thanked me for being a good friend to Lex. I reminded him that I am not just
Lex's friend. I practically yanked his hand off my shoulder and that was when he noticed that was wearing the ring, the one Lex gave me. I
know that bothers him that Lex gave it to me. It used to belong to Lex's mom.
Then he touched my face. It was the grossest thing ever. He is so disgusting. He touched me and said that maybe I could be nicer to him. At
first I was too stunned. I couldn't move. He leaned in close to me. I thought he was going to kiss me!
Then I jumped away from him and told him I had to get home because my mom and dad were expecting me. I have never been so happy to get away
from somebody. I was stupid to think he'd ever let me see Lex.
If his dad won't let me in to see him then I'll just have to figure out another way.
~
Back to square one
I should just break into that place and take Lex away. That would totally piss my dad off to no end. He's already angry
that I go every day. After my meeting with Lionel, there was no reason not to at least try to see Lex, so I've been going every day after
school. By now the staff all know me. I even brought coffee to the receptionist after I found out she loved the Talon coffee. She said she
hardly ever gets to go in for one so I brought her favorite in the hopes that she'd let me see Lex. No luck. She told me that Lionel and
Lex's doctor gave strict orders not to let anybody see Lex. It was worth a shot.
I spend most of my time doing the heavy chores and avoiding my parents. I don't want to get into a fight with Dad. We already had a huge one
over the weekend. I can't believe he's still chastising me for helping Lex. Dad still doesn't get how much I care about Lex. He just doesn't
believe it's real. I can see it in his eyes. Sometimes I hate my Dad so much, but then I feel guilty because of everything he's sacrificed
for me.
I still haven't seen Lana. I heard she's recovering but that it will take a while before she'll be able to walk again. Chloe said the topic
of me never comes up. I get that. It's not like I expected Lana to change her mind. I'm just glad Lana's going to recover.
I'm trying to get back to normal. School is so boring. I don't care about it much right now. Pete keeps trying to cheer me up and he has no
clue why I am so down. Thankfully he hasn't made any stupid cracks about Lex. The second he does, I am going to tell him exactly what Lex
means to me. I'm just not in the mood for any shit right now.
If I were Kal, I'd break Lex out of there without a second thought.
~
I have a plan
I've convinced the receptionist at Belle Reve to slip a note to Lex. I just have to write the note. I spent all last
night and all today trying to figure out what to say in the note. This is what I came up with:
Dear Lex
I just want you to know that I am here for you. I wish I was always there for you, including times when you tell me not to be there for you.
I miss you a lot. I was hoping your father would let me visit but he said you needed time to recover. I hope this time helps and that you
can come home soon.
Love Clark
I didn't want to say anything in the note like 'your dad sucks' or 'get out of there now because I just know your dad is up to something
nasty' just in case something goes wrong and Lex doesn't get the note. I'm going over today after school to give her the note. Then I'm
going to ask her if she could possibly let Lex write back to me. I really need to know that Lex is going to be okay and that he's safe.
I keep having these horrible visions of him being strapped down and tortured. It could happen. Lionel is a bastard and he would stop at
nothing to get his way. He already proved that by drugging his own son and trying to drive Lex nuts.
I feel so anxious today. I have this note in my pocket and I want to get it to him right now, but I need to finish this English assignment.
I think I'm wearing a hole in the floor from tapping my foot so much. Pete keeps warning me to stop. He's right. It would look really
suspicious if there was suddenly a hole in the floor just under my desk. These desks are too small. It's so annoying that they can't get
desks a huge guy like me can fit in.
I wish that clock would speed up. I wonder if I could do that, speed up time. That would be totally cool. I could make school hours go by
really, really fast, and during something nice, like some hot sex, I could make time almost stand still. I want that to be the next ability
I develop.
That would probably be a bad idea. I doubt I could resist abusing that power.
~
Fuck fuck fuck
God! That was...*shudders* fuck! Lionel touched me! He fucking wore the Kryptonite cufflinks when he stopped by to
chastise me for trying to slip Lex a note. I couldn't move or get away from him.
I was doing my homework earlier tonight when I suddenly felt sick. Lionel came up to my loft to talk to me about what I had tried to do.
Luckily I was already sitting down on the sofa or I might have fallen over from the effects of the rocks in his cufflinks. He had the
fucking nerve to act all polite like he was just stopping in for a visit to talk about Lex and he was all 'la la la hello, Clark. How are
you this fine evening?" Then he picked up my math textbook and pretended to be interested in what I was studying. Meanwhile I was trying
hard not to show how much pain I was in. I tried to stand up to get away from him, but he sat down beside me and grabbed my leg and told me
he had something very serious to talk to me about.
He pulled the note out of his pocket and threw it in my lap. Then when I didn't pick it up, he picked it up, and I think he totally touched
me there on purpose. I think my dick shriveled up when his hand brushed against it, and now I think I'm going to be sick. It was so
gross. Lex's dad was groping me! Then he told me he was disappointed in me and that he thought that I of all people should want Lex to get
better fast. He said Lex can't get better if I am constantly trying to interfere. He said if I continue to harass the staff, he'd have to
take more drastic measures to keep me away from his son.
Before he came up to the loft, he talked to my parents about my 'recalcitrant behavior' and that he expected me to stay away from Lex. He
leaned in really close and asked if I was sick then told me that I should take better care of myself. He just stared at me with his creepy
eyes and then suddenly he was standing and saying he had to go and that it was a pleasant visit.
FUCK HIM! It was not a pleasant visit! He's a fucking bastard and I need to get my heart rate down because I am still totally freaking over
all this and I can't talk to anybody about it. Dad came up to talk to me shortly after Lionel left. He told me to comply with what Mr.
Luthor wants. I knew Dad would say that. He wants me to stay under the radar and I bet Lex would say the same thing, except Lex probably
would have told me to break Lionel's hand. I told Dad I can't just sit by while Lionel does who-knows-what to Lex in that place. Then Dad
ordered me to stop trying to see Lex. He told me he expects me to obey him. Actually, he yelled it at me. I was so furious at him. Mom came
up right at that moment and she had this look on her face. I totally deflated. I lost my fight and just said "yes, sir" and went back to my
homework.
Why couldn't I have crashed on some other planet? I really want to be someplace else. Maybe I could go and kidnap Lex and we could find that
island he was stranded on and live there away from the rest of this insane world.
I fucking miss Lex so much, and not just because I am so horny, I could hammer nails with my cock.
I need a shower.
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