03:52 pm
There's a new face in town
Lois calls him the Green Arrow, but I think criminal would be a better word. He robbed those people. I tried to stop him, but he had these tricks up his sleeve that I never saw coming. I was distracted by his tight leather outfit. It's not my fault. It was so tight. I don't know how he moved so quickly. And who the hell wears a costume. This guy must think life is a comic book.
I miss the days when things were simple. Whoever this Green Arrow guy is, I'm going to find out. When I do, I won't fall for his stupid tricks again.
I talked to Chloe and she said that Lois is just as gung-ho about exposing this guy. I wish she'd stay out of it. She could get hurt, and I don't need the distraction of having to worry about her on top of everything else. I don't want the article she wrote for that tabloid she works for to make her a target.
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11:59 am
Not good
Green Arrow saw me use my abilities. He saw me use my heat vision. I was trying to stop him from robbing yet another home, and I slipped up. I managed to stand between him and the prize, but there was a security guard there and Green Arrow used that to his advantage. I caught the first arrow in my hand, which is not possible. I was kind of hoping it would throw him off, but he barely skipped a beat. He shot a second arrow. This time it hit its mark. He shot the guard and when I went to make sure he was okay, Green Arrow was long gone. He got away with the necklace he was after. I don't know how he did it. He must be enhanced somehow.
I flew off, and by the time I got home, my heart was pounding in my chest. I've never been caught like that. I'm usually way more careful.
I wanted to call Lex. I even dialed his number, but all I got was his answering service. I was panicked. I hung up without leaving a message. I called Chloe instead. I was going to tell her what happened, but then changed my mind. I need to find out who Green Arrow is. He knows what I can do, and he knows what I look like. He hides behind a mask. Maybe he's got the right idea.
I wish Lex was here to tell me what to do.
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06:27 pm
A visit from Oliver
Oliver stopped by the house today. He said he was there to talk to my mom, but she was out for the day. I invited him to share lunch with me. I don't really know him that well, but it was nice to talk to sit down and get to know each other better. I could use a friend and I've been kind of lacking in that department.
The whole time he was here, he kept looking at me like something was on his mind. It made me feel kind of self-conscious. I wanted to ask if I was the real reason he stopped by, but that seemed kind of egotistical. I'm sure he would have said something if that was the case. I have to admit. I was a little nervous. He has these piercing eyes, and he is older than me. I felt awkward, and I'm not really sure why.
By the time he left, I felt much more at ease with him. When he shook my hand, he squeezed it. Then he winked and made a comment about how big I am. I think he was flirting with me. Maybe it's just my overactive imagination, or maybe it's been so long since I've had any, I want to see an attraction that isn't there.
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12:06 pm
Everything is green
I had another run-in with the Green Arrow. We fought, and when I tried to take his bow from him, he grabbed my head and pulled me closer and kissed me hard on the lips. I was too shocked to react in time and he got the upper hand. I feel like an idiot for letting my guard down like that. I should have been able to outsmart him, but instead, he used a completely unexpected tactic. How I was supposed to see that coming? He kissed me!
Once I recovered, I made my way to the Daily Planet to talk to Chloe. The green Arrow told me that I should dig deeper. He said the surface is deceiving, and that I should start thinking instead of using brawn. I think I should be insulted. I need to investigate what he said, but I don't have the time. She said she would look into the items that were taken. Chloe thinks there might be a clue as to what this mystery man wants with them. I need to find out who he is. There was something in his tone of voice that seemed familiar.
I'm going to the city to do some more digging. My mom wants me to stop in on Oliver as well. I have to admit, I'm kind of nervous about going to see him. I guess I should face the fact that I find him attractive. I can't believe this. First there was nothing and now I find two men attractive at the same time.
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11:55 am
He's not unpleasant to the eyes
I spent yesterday in the city. Actually, most of it was with Oliver. When I arrived at his place, he was working out, shirtless. He's so at ease with himself. I envy that. Even at the best of times, I still feel clumsy and awkward around other people. My feet are huge and my hands, when not crushing objects, are freakishly big. Oliver doesn't seem to mind. He says he liked what he sees.
Once he showered and changed we went out for lunch together. He's such a nice guy. I found myself comparing him and Lex, as I knew I would. I couldn't help it. They're both rich and seem so at ease with who they are. Oliver isn't at all pompous or arrogant. He's nice. I can't think of another word. We had a really good time. I went back to his place after lunch. The mood was right for a kiss and I almost did kiss him. I wanted to. I really did. He's hot! Then he told me that he's taking Lois to the party on Friday. That killed my mood completely. He reassured me that the thing between him and Lois is purely platonic. Not sure why he said that. It's not like we're dating or anything. From all the press I could find about him, I get the impression that he's into women. I found no evidence that he likes guys, but then, maybe it's not something he advertises.
I also went to see Chloe at the Daily Planet again. She made a very interesting discovery about the stolen items. I'm looking into it more.
My mom wants me to go to the mansion today to help her with stuff, but I lied and told her I was way too busy. I can't go over there. The thought of seeing Lex right now is way too upsetting.
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11:36 am
Lex stopped by to warn me about Oliver
At lunch yesterday, Mom went on about the preparations for the party. She sounds so in her element. I suggested that maybe organizing fundraisers is something she's like to do as a job. She seems so happy now. My parents had a discussion of the dangers of working so closely with the Luthors. Mom basically told Dad to back off and Dad went out to work in the barn. Then mom told me that Lex seems sad when she talks to him. She said she's known him long enough to know when he's unhappy.
Then there was a knock at the back door. I looked over and he was standing there, framed by the doorway, in his long black coat. The sunlight was streaming in, surrounding him like a halo. For just a second, my heart leapt with joy at seeing him. All thoughts of anything else were lost the second he asked if he could come in. My mom invited him in, and left us alone. I wanted to play it cool. I tried my best. I made polite conversation and asked how thing were going.
It was hard, seeing him. I brought up something I hadn't wanted to think about at all, because it hurt too much, but I couldn't help myself. Before I knew what I was saying, I blurted out that we would have celebrated our one year wedding anniversary on November 11.
Then he told me the real reason he stopped by to see me. He wanted to warn me about Oliver. He thinks that Oliver is only interested in me because of what I mean to Lex. I couldn't believe the arrogance. He said Oliver's not a nice guy and that they have a past. I wanted to ask what that past was, but I know him. He would probably rather walk on glass than tell me about his childhood at this point.
Once he said he felt he'd warned me, he went to leave, but I didn't want him to go. I asked if he was going to the party and if he was taking a date. He said he would make an appearance since he does own the mansion, and that he's not going with a date. He's not dating anyone. I didn't think he was. I'm sure I would have heard something if that was the case, but it was nice to hear it from Lex. I told him that I wouldn't be at the party since those things really aren't my style, but I warned him that Oliver would be there with Lois. He thinks they deserve each other.
I don't know why I thought this and it's so stupid, but a part of me thought that Lex was there because he was so jealous about Oliver that he rushed right over to reclaim me. I thought if we were standing close enough and I was right there in his face, he'd want me, or even kiss me. But it didn't happen. I told him that I miss him, and that he's welcome any time, and then I watched him leave. It's been months since we broke up. Why does it hurt just as much each time he walks away from me?
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05:05 pm
I saw Lex again
All I have to do is look into his eyes and I'm lost. I fall for him every time I see him. It's never going to be any other way. I ran into Lex at the mansion when I went over to help my mom with the preparations. Of course he was there. He lives there. I tried to stay away from him.
When I found him, he was having his tuxedo fitted. The tailor left the room and then we were alone together again for the second time in as many days. He was gorgeous. It took my breath away to see him standing there in black, his eyes filled with fire. I wanted him to be mine again. I wanted everything to be the way it was before our lives were turned upside-down by fate. I wanted to grab him and kiss him and take him and make him see reason, but instead I stood there. I just stood there with my mouth gaping, unable to speak.
I guess he literally took my breath away. I apologized for intruding on him and we talk for a few minutes. I managed to sneak a picture with my cell phone. Isn't he stunning?
We were both polite and I told him that I had to get back to work. Then I left him alone. It was so nice to see him again.
I managed to finish the preparations for the party. Everything is all set. Tonight is probably going to go well. My mom rented a tux for me, but I declined. She tried to convince me that she needs me there, but I can't go. Lex wouldn't want me there, and I don't want to put a strain on an already delicate situation. I'm going to play it cool. Don't get me wrong. I want to see him, but I don't want to push things. I don't want to get in his space.
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02:17 pm
Identity of a hero revealed
I can't believe this. Oliver is the Green Arrow. I went searching for answers and I found them. It's him. Not only is it him, but it turned out that the items he was stealing were already taken from their original owners. He anonymously returned them to their true owners. He's not a bad guy after all. Even if I don't approve of his methods, he was trying to help.
Oliver stopped in to see me this morning. It was nice not to have to hide my strength from somebody. Ever since Lex broke up with me, I've had to be more cautious. I always am any way, but when I was with Lex, I could always be myself. I didn't need to pretend to be something I wasn't. I never realize how much I missed that freedom until now.
Oliver was really impressed with me and I have to admit that I did show off a little. He watched me do my boring chores. I have to tell my mom and dad that he knows about my special abilities. I hope Dad doesn't get angry. At least Oliver doesn't know that I'm an alien from the planet Krypton. Hopefully that will appease Dad. I know I'm in for a lecture about being more careful hiding what I can do. I used to dread those, but these days, not so much.
When I asked Oliver if he was going to tell Lois about his secret life, he said he'd prefer that she not know. I advised him to tell her as soon as he could, because keeping a secret like that could come back to bite him in the ass. He said he'd only consider it if he and Lois were a serious item. At this point, they're not. I wonder if Lois knows this. Oliver is all she talks about. She's acting like they're dating. At least she's stopped hanging out at the farm.
Oliver thinks I should get into the hero business. I can't imagine wearing a costume, but maybe it would be cool. Maybe I could wear something made out of leather like Oliver wears only it would be red and blue. Oliver looks hot in his costume. I could even wear a cool cape so when I fly, it would trail behind me. I'd probably look really dorky. I wonder what Lex would think of that? I might ask him. Bruce wears the Batman costume. Maybe I could ask Bruce's opinion. I think he's still in town.
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09:07 pm
A visit from a friend
It's been a busy week. Between trying to get the farm ready for the holidays, helping Mom out with orders and my dad harassing me about Lex, I haven't really had time to breath. I did make time to visit Oliver. He's not as bad as Lex and Bruce make him out to be. I did ask him about their past. Oliver admitted that he wasn't such a nice guy back then, but he's changed. He isn't that kid anymore. I believe him.
Of course, Lex seems determined to make Oliver out to be a bad guy. He even sent Bruce over to confirm Oliver's bad boy rep. Bruce and Lex went to school with Oliver a long time ago. What could Oliver have done that was so bad, they can't forgive him?
It was nice to see Bruce. He said Dick is busy traveling. When I pushed he admitted that Dick is actually out in search of himself. Bruce doesn't seem thrilled about that, but other than that he seems happy.
I have so much to do over the next week. I know what I'm giving Lex for Christmas. I've never been surer about what to give him. It feels like so long ago that I was young and unsure of how to behave around him. So much has happened to me, to both of us.
There's only one thing I want this holiday. I wish more than anything that Lex would walk through my door, and forgive me.
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12:15 pm
The week has ended
I keep thinking that the next time I see Lex, he'll come to his senses and realize that we're meant to be. I feel like this sentence is etched in my brain. I say it to myself every night, but it's not true.
I gave him his gift. My dad was upset when he found out what I was giving Lex, but I told him it was the only option. I had to do it. The device Zod used to try to destroy the world is useless now, but I didn't care. Lex looked surprised that I gave it to him, but I think he was pleased. I think he was impressed with me. At least, I hope he was. I really want him to see that I've changed and that he can trust me and count on me to be there for him no matter what happens between us.
Dad is still angry at me. He asked if I should trust Lex now that we're split up, but I reminded him that Lex hasn't once broken his word to me. Dad's been pushy about the whole thing. It feels like he brings it up every chance he gets. I told him repeatedly that Lex would never do anything to hurt me. I reminded him that what happened with Zod was my fault. It seems like no matter what I say or do, I can't win. Dad finally admitted that he's afraid Zod isn't gone completely. I reassured him that I destroyed Zod.
Bruce is still at the mansion. He said he's staying for a while to spend some time with his friend. When I went to the mansion to give Lex his gift, I walked in on what looked like a "more than just friends" scenario. They were standing really close, and Bruce's hand was on Lex's shoulder. When I made my presence know, they quickly moved apart. I gave Lex his gift and left as fast as I could. I can't help imagining what they could be up to right this second. Bruce and he have been friends for a long time, and they're both alone now.
Bruce stopped by our place on Christmas day to give us presents. He got me a red flannel shirt. He gave my mom front row tickets to a ballet. Mom is making my dad go with her.
I like Bruce, but I really hope he and Lex aren't sleeping together. I know I have no say in any of it, and that it's not my business, but the thought of Bruce and Lex together makes my head spin. I'm trying so hard not to get mad, but it's so frustrating. I can't help it. I see Lex and I still feel just as much in love with him as I did before. That hasn't changed. Unfortunately, everything else in our lives has.
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04:43 pm
I can take a hint
It's been a good Christmas. I wish Lex had been here to spend it with me. I did get to see him. I went over to the mansion to give him his gift. Bruce is still there. I'm glad Lex has somebody he cares about with him at this time of year.
I felt bad, because Bruce got me something. He got me a nice shirt. I didn't get him anything. I didn't know he was still going to be in town. Lex went overboard as usual. It's not his place anymore to tell me what to do, but I accepted his gift. He gave me a new Macbook Pro, laptop bag with a card that said "for when you go back to school next spring". It's sitting in my room. I haven't even turned it on yet. I kind of didn't tell my parents about it. On top of that, he's arranged for me to reenroll in classes. He even gave me a course catalog. I know Lex is right. I should go back to school, but I'd hoped that maybe he'd be there when I did. I did briefly take a look at the catalog. Lois caught me. She teased me about being a farm boy my whole life.
If I do go back to school, I don't think I'll be taking the same courses. I've sort of got an idea of what I want to do, but I need to think about it some more. I'm supposed to go see Oliver today. He wants to talk to me about New Year's Eve. Maybe I could talk to him about this. If I talk to Mom and Dad they'll get excited, and I can't deal with that right now. Lois is totally out of the question, and Chloe is away with Lana. I guess that leaves my new friend.
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