11:30 pm
He went out again today
He wanted to do more research. I wish he'd just leave it alone.
Since he was going to be out for a while, I decided to go for a ride out to the country. I drove by my old home. I stopped briefly. I didn't
see my parents. They were probably working the fields or something just as boring.
It was nice to ride out in the open roads. I ended up being chased by the cops in the next county over from where I used to live. I gave
them the slip. There was no way I was going to get a speeding ticket. As much fun as I had out there, I was happy to return to our home. Pal
was still out when I returned, but he said he'd come home tonight for sure. So far he's not home yet.
I'll just wait for him here in our bed: naked, with some whip cream (oops. I swear I meant whipped cream) and leather straps. We are going
to have fun tonight.
I can't wait to lick his awesome ass.
~
06:39 pm
Last night
Last night I took a long, hot shower. I can take them really hot when it's just me. My skin never burns from the heat. I felt so amazing
afterwards that I jerked off to thoughts of Lex fucking me. I knew what I had to do. I had to set a trap that no sane man could resist.
I took out two leather wrist restraints and laid them down on the bed. I wrote out a note that said 'All Yours' and placed that on the table
beside the bed. Then I laid face down with my arms above my head, wrists crossed, and waited for him to return. I made sure that the first
thing he'd see was me and my naked ass.
I didn't have too long to wait. He came home just like he promised he would. By that time, I had dozed off into a nice, sweet, dream-like
haze where Lex fucked me over and over and over again. My pants are getting tight thinking about it.
He walked in without a word and took a drink. Then he sat down beside me, caressing my back and ass and sending shivers all over my body. I
was hard instantly. Lex could always make me hard by just walking into a room, and I am so happy that this is still the case. I remember
that one time when I was in the Talon and he walked in, and I got all hot and hard and had to leave. Man, I was so naive then. Good thing I
smartened up. I hate to imagine all those moments that we would never have had if I hadn't taken a chance. I can't even remember a time when
I wasn't attracted to him. Every time Lex touches me, it's bliss.
...like last night. Lex took the bait. He stripped himself naked, then he tied me up with the wrist restraints. I could have escaped any
time I wanted, but I didn't want to. I wanted to be helpless, even if it was only imagined. I told myself that I was at Lex Luthor's mercy
and that he was going to teach me a lesson.
He taught me the most awesome lesson ever. He taught me that being fucked from behind by him with his hands holding my bound wrists is the
fucking sexiest thing ever. I thrust my ass in the air as he pushed deep into me. I wanted it as hard as he could make it, and I got it. He
pounded into me, and it was bliss.
It was torture too, because I didn't get to come. Lex was rewarded with his release, but I had to wait for mine. He came deep inside me with
barely any words exchanged between us beyond 'fuck me hard' and 'fuck, Kal' and 'yes, fuck, yes'. Then after he came, he collapsed on top of
me. I still hadn't come. I tried desperately to fuck into the mattress. The friction of my cock rubbing against the sheets drove me insane.
I probably would have poked a hole in the mattress except Lex told me to turn over and then he finally gave me what I wanted. He sucked my
cock until I exploded in his mouth. I love what he does with his tongue, and how he deep-throats me and swallows when my cock is buried deep
inside him. Best feeling ever.
I couldn't keep the pretence of being bound any longer. I broke the restraints as I came, but that was okay, since my climax was so awesome.
After that, I could barely move. We both collapsed. I told him that was the best sex ever, and then we both passed out. I slept deeply, and
when I woke up this morning, he was already gone. He left a note saying he'd be back later. I can't even be upset at the fact that he didn't
wake me before he left, because there is no way I am going to be mad after that fucking awesome sex.
I have to go jerk off now.
~
01:53 pm
My day so far
I fell asleep and no Pal, then I woke up this morning and no Pal. He's doing it again. At least he left a note to tell me he'd be out most
of the day. I decided I needed some entertainment, so I went out and picked up some toys. Now I am going to sit here in my underwear and
play with myself all day long.
This has been the best summer ever. No stupid farm work to distract me and all this extra curricular activity makes my life so much fun.
Monday night was so awesome. I want to repeat the performance, only this time I want to top. Then I want him to beg me to suck his cock.
That would totally rock.
The sun is shining, and I just had my coffee out on the balcony, watching the world go by. I have a feeling this is going to be a
spectacular day.
~
12:13 pm
Lex is gone again
He came home last night really late after being out all day. I wanted to take him to dinner, but he didn't show. I wanted to do something
nice. I thought maybe even if he wasn't up for some sex, he might want something different, but Lex wasn't up for anything at all. He was
too tired. I tried not to let that bother me. I spent all day yesterday waiting for him. I should have gone out and robbed another bank, or
done something to kill time. I didn't even get a chance to propose something to him.
This morning when I woke up, he was already gone. I don't know how he does that. He's so sneaky. I know he can't really get a cell phone
because of the danger of his father finding him, but this is ridiculous. I hate it. I'm the one he should be obsessing over, not that stupid
rock. I know what he said about it being important and that he has to find out for both our sakes what it means and what it is, but I want
him to be here so I can fuck him if I feel like it!
I'm going out for a ride today. Who knows where I'll end up or who I'll end up with? I need an adventure.
~
11:37 am
I wish Lex had stayed with me
We had breakfast together and talked about things. I tried to convince him to stay with me. I didn't want him to find out more about that
stone. I couldn't tell him that I'm terrified of what it could mean, because when I'm Kal, nothing terrifies me. He knows about the message
in the ship and how it said that I was sent here to take over the world. What if this stone is part of that?
I wish he'd stayed, but I think it's too late now for things to be different. I know that everything that has happened up to now is because
of the choices I've made. I still can't bring myself to phone home again.
I hate my life so much.
~
11:42 am
Worst weekend ever
Lex and I had a huge fight last night.
The weekend started off okay. Lex was still taking off in the morning to do more research, and then coming home late at night. He did that
on Saturday. I was getting really impatient with this, so last night I dressed up for the club and left him a note saying I'd be at Docks'
gay night. I wanted him to join me, but he didn't show up until way later in the evening. By then I had gotten tired of waiting for him. I
ran into James, so we danced and had a few drinks together. He got a little drunk, and kissed me and told me that he misses me. I kind of
missed him. He's a nice guy and he looked so hot last night.
We left the club and I was going to give him a ride home, but that was when Lex showed up. Of course James had just grabbed me and kissed me
right at that moment. Lex freaked. He attacked James in a fury. It was kind of amusing until Lex knocked James out. Then Lex took off all
freaked out, yelling at me to stay away from him.
I checked on James to make sure he wasn't dead or anything, and then I ran after Lex but he was gone. I managed to wake James and get him
home safe. He was so pissed off, but I told him not to do anything drastic. Once I made sure he was going to be fine, I went home. Lex
wasn't there. The Lamborghini wasn't gone, so I know he didn't take it. I went to that place where he'd watched me from, but he wasn't there
either. I started to panic and before I knew it, I was in his penthouse. There was no sign of him at all. I thought maybe he was angry
enough to go back to that place even if it might mean running into his father. I checked the garage and all the same cars were still there.
I ran around the city not sure where else to look. Eventually I had to come home. I can't believe he'd be so angry about a little harmless
kiss that he'd vanish on me. I was so furious last night. What if somebody sees him? Lex didn't seem very stable when he ran off. I hope he
doesn't go after his father. I could totally see him doing that.
I woke up alone this morning. I was hoping he'd come to his senses and return in the middle of the night. I guess I'll just have to wait and
see if he decides to return to me. Maybe he thinks he hurt James really badly and feels like he can't come back. I called James this morning
and he said he was fine. I managed to talk him into not going to the police about this. I had to promise to go see him sometime today.
This is such a mess. I wanted Lex to stop paying attention to that stupid stone and pay attention only to me, but I didn't want this. I feel
helpless. I know Lex can take care of himself, but I want to take care of him. I want to be the one he counts on. I've always wanted that
since he came back from that island. Now I've totally failed him. When he comes back, things are going to change. I'm sure he'll call me
soon or something.
~
05:30 pm
Still no Lex
I guess he must still be really mad at me. I wish he'd at least call. I went over to talk to James. He's fine and he won't go to the cops. I
had to promise to keep in touch. I told him I would, but I'm not going to. He doesn't need to know that. I wanted to tell Lex that James is
in the past.
The only thing that's important is that Lex comes home. I'll let him yell and shout until he feels better then we can go back to having sex.
I wish he'd call.
~
09:01 pm
I just got a package delivered to my place
It looks like Lex didn't run off on his own like I thought. The package I got had Lex's collar in it and a note that said 'The stone for the
man. We will tell you where to go.' Who the fuck are these people and what do they want with the stone?
Fuck that! Nobody tells me what to do. I am going to find these people and fuck them up so badly, they'll wish they'd never crossed my path.
They have no idea who they are messing with. If they hurt Lex I won't be responsible for what I do to them.
~
02:00 pm
Maybe I should have planned that a little better
I saw Lex. He's in bad shape. They hurt him badly. They are going to pay.
I got a note this morning telling me where to bring the stone. I didn't bring the stone. I hid it where nobody would find it. I figured I
could get in and out of there in a flash and save Lex, but when I got there, these guys jumped me from behind. That wouldn't have been a
problem except for the fact that they had green kryptonite on them. I couldn't fight back. I only saw Lex for a few seconds. He was tied to
a chair, covered in cuts and bruises.
They knocked me out and left me with a present. When I finally woke up, I was so weak from the green kryptonite that I could barely lift my
hand to pick it up. I tried to throw it far enough away so it wouldn't affect me, but I didn't even manage that. I only threw it a few feet
and had to drag my ass out of the warehouse to get away from it. I fucking hate those rocks. How the fuck did they know to use it against
me? I didn't recognize any of these guys. I know they can't be Edge's men because, as far as I know, I've met all his thugs. Just to be
sure, maybe I'll pay him a visit, the kind where I kick his old ass while he answers all my questions.
Now they're all gone again. I blew it. I underestimated these people.
Fuck!
~
05:58 pm
This is not a game
Fuck these assholes! Who the fuck do they think they are? Who the fuck do they think they're dealing with? I am not a nice guy! This time
they called me directly and ordered me to bring the stone to them. I tried to talk to the guy on the other end. I wanted to find out who
they were and why they wanted something that belongs to me, but they only told me they would kill Lex if I didn't bring them the stone by
tonight. They gave me a location and said that I better have the stone on me this time or else. They made sure I could hear Lex's screams of
pain in the background.
I just want Lex back. They can have the stone. If I go there and find him any kinds of dead, there will be a lot of dead guys in Metropolis
tonight.
~
12:02 pm
That hurt like a bitch
Last night sucked. I went to meet those guys and brought the stone. They overpowered me again, which was totally embarrassing, took the
stone from me, and shot me in the chest a few times.
Can I say it again? Getting shot in the chest with green kryptonite close by, really fucking hurt like a bitch. I feel better today, but
last night after Lex and I finally dragged our sorry beaten asses' home, I felt like death. Even after the green kryptonite was gone I still
felt dead. The bullet wounds healed, but I felt so drained. I spent some time out on the balcony this morning and I feel so amazing now.
Unfortunately, Lex is not that fast at healing. He's covered in cuts and bruises and has a few broken fingers.
I don't care about the stone at all. I just wanted Lex back. I don't even care about those guys at this point. I can find them later and pay
them back for what they did to us. I'm not worried.
Lex hasn't said much about what happened. He's been mostly quiet. I'm just glad he's back in one piece.
~
10:47 pm
Even all bruised
And beaten up, Pal is still the hottest thing ever in bed. Sex - how I missed you.
~
11:21 pm
Just a little more
It feels so good to be here, just the two of us, when there's nobody but us, and no interruptions. It's perfect. Lex is reserved even when I
pin him to the bed and give him everything his eyes plead for and he whispers words that disappear when we kiss.
I feel lucky that we've had so many chances. I lie in bed awake at night because most nights I can't sleep. I think about everything we've
gone through to get to where we are. I think about where we're headed. Things could have gone so much worse.
He was right. He knew it right from the moment he saw me on that riverbank. Our friendship will be the stuff of legend. I'm going to make
sure of that.
~
10:41 am
He's doing fine
And he looks damn fine in the collar and wrist restraints. He looks so damn fine in nothing, which is the state he's been in for the last
few days. He's almost all healed from his ordeal with those crazy people who tried to kill him. I didn't manage to get my hands on them, but
when I do, they'll regret ever going near me and what's mine.
I took measures to ensure that Pal wouldn't get into any more trouble. I think we both know what's best for him. I should have done this
right from the start. I knew how much trouble he always gets into. It's not really his fault. He's just that way.
All those times back in small town, when he'd find himself in a predicament... What would he do without me? I swear if it weren't for me,
he'd be long gone.
Today I made things more comfortable for him, so now he can move around the apartment without my supervision. He looks so hot like this. I
jumped him the second I put the cuffs on his wrists. The chain just makes it that much more kinky.
I don't think I have to remind him who's boss.
~
12:57 pm
Wow, he looks so amazing.
Chains can not break his spirit, but that wasn't my intention. I've become aware of something about myself. I love Lex tied up. I love him
at my mercy. His eyes watch me and they penetrate my very soul. It's like he's the one with special vision.
I've made him as comfortable as possible and told him many times that I'm only doing this for his own good. If he'd stopped getting into
trouble, then this drastic measure would never have been necessary. He understands. He still calls me Angel when he comes in my mouth.
He's asked for his freedom, but other than that he's mostly just been a good boy. I really wish I could trust him, but after what has
happened since he's been here, I can't. Besides, he looks damn hot.
~
08:09 am
We had such a great time
I know that most people would think the way I'm handling my disobedient boyfriend isn't exactly sensible. I don't really care. If you knew
how much trouble he always gets into, you might take just as drastic a measure as I have. He's so smug sometimes. He thinks that nothing
will hurt him. He thinks that I'll always be there to rescue his cute ass. I wish that were true. I won't always be there. I wasn't there
when he vanished. How could I have known where he was? He took off without a word. That's the kind of behavior I have to deal with all the
time from him.
He's great in bed and seriously the smartest person I've ever met, but sometimes he's just so stubborn which just makes it so much harder.
Right now he's asleep. He's lying on our bed in his boxers. He looks content in these moments when he's unguarded. He looks like an angel.
In my mind he's so perfect and yet so flawed. I never want to share him with the world again. He's mine and I intend to keep it that way. I
told him I'd think about letting him go. He tried to escape when I went out for food yesterday. I found him attempting to chip away at the
wall where the chain is attached. I wasn't angry. I was concerned, but we talked and I managed to convince him that everything is going to
be fine. He's safer with me. I will take good care of him and I will never let him down.
We ended up having some really awesome hot sex. I worship his body. I want to lick every inch of his bared skin; it's so beautiful and
tempting. I can't even look at him most times without getting excited. I told him how much he turns me on, because I thought that maybe he
tended to forget.
After the sex, we had a nice dinner and some wine. He mostly drank the wine and I watched. He calmed down and accepted things this way. He
looks so much happier with me here. He's got to know that I can protect him no matter what.
~
09:45 pm
Why did I go back there?
I have no idea. I went out today and while I was out I had to remove the ring. I decided to go see Mom and Dad. My things are all in boxes.
They're losing the farm. Mom was in tears and Dad was full of hope. I couldn't stay there any longer. Just as I was leaving I knocked over a
family picture and it crashed to the floor. Mom rushed up the stairs, calling my name. She sounded so desperate. I wasn't worried. I knew
there was no way they could catch up to me. I ran out to the far field and put the ring back on.
I'm home now. This is where I belong. Here with Lex. I love him and I want us to be together. If I go back there, that's not going to
happen. Jonathan will turn me into a work horse to get that farm back in order. There is no way I am going to return to that life.
I told Lex about what I overheard at the Kent farm. He suggested I help them without their knowledge, but I really think Jonathan needs to
learn to stand on his own two feet. He's treated me like farm equipment for way too long. I bet he wishes he was nicer to me.
Lex said something in his last post about me. I know it and I can't read the post. We made an agreement a long time ago to respect each
other's space. I'm not worried. Lex would never betray me.
Man, I need a shower so badly. I smell like farm.
~
07:52 am
If you love him set him free
Isn't that what they say? I feel weird this morning. I spent so much time last night just lying in bed pondering the last few weeks. Lex
slept well, despite everything that's happened to him. He's strong and one of the things that I love so much about him is how he manages to
always come out on top no matter what happens. Even when others would think he's lost, he never sees it that way. He always sees what he's
won.
I feel like he's finally started to realize that everything I did was for his own good. He never stops asking to be set free, but my concern
for his safety has not faltered. The world thinks he's dead. He is not safe out there where his father controls so much. I don't want him to
get hurt. When those crazy men tried to kill him over that stupid rock, I was furious. He was risking his life for nothing. It just wasn't
worth it.
I feel like maybe I could trust him if I did let him go, but I'm still not sure.
He looks fine now. He's still asleep, his body stretched out in a casual sprawl that is so sexy. I'm hard just looking at him. He's only
wearing my boxers. One arm hangs over the bed from the weight of the chain.
I just want what's best for him.
~
07:24 am
So What!
I reminded him that the world thinks he no longer exists. I reminded him that he needs to be careful. We both know it's not safe for him to
leave the apartment right now.
I broke the restraints. He's free. I'm not a monster. He looked at me with those eyes. They looked desolate, but when I looked closer, I saw
there was forgiveness in them.
I still say he looked hot like that, all chained up. Now he gets to wear clothes. He looks so much better naked. Right now he's asleep, and
his hand is resting on his bare chest. I never noticed how delicate his hands are. They're not girly or anything. They're just soft. He
hasn't done much manual labor in his life so that's probably why.
I could stare at him for hours, watch him breathe, touch his body and marvel at his reaction. Like right now he's hard. I should do
something about that.
~
09:36 pm
We had a great time last night
It was Lex's birthday yesterday. I know he thought I'd forgotten, but I never forget anything. I have a perfect memory. While he was in the
apartment otherwise occupied, I went out and got him a very nice expensive chain for his neck. Originally I was only going to get the chain,
but I saw this really nice tag and had it engraved.
He loved it and it looked great on him. Then we went for a long run after. I told him I'd do anything for him, and that was what he wanted,
so that's what we did.
We did have some amazing sex. There can never be too much of that.
Now he's gone. He went out late this afternoon to do some stuff, and he hasn't returned yet. I am not going to flip out, and I am not going
to go chase after him.
I'm going to sit here calmly and wait for him to call. He had better call.
~
11:14 am
Okay, so what do I do now?
Lex did not come back last night, and he's not here today. He's gone. I guess I was too much for him. I guess that must be it. I should have
left him tied up, because knowing him, he's probably in danger somewhere.
I suppose I could just give him the benefit of the doubt and wait some more. He could call right after I write this.
Really, it could happen. I'd go looking for him, except I already did and I didn't find any sign of him. I looked in a few places I thought
he might be, but he wasn't there. He better show up soon.
What do I do until then? Say I told you so?
~
05:52 pm
I was right
Pal has gotten into trouble again. It's my fault though. That prick Edge really pisses me off. He sent a goon to 'hire' me for a job. His
incentive - do the job by midnight tonight or your lover dies. I have the necklace I got him for his birthday. The bastard sent it to prove
they have him.
He told me that I have to meet with his boss for the details of the job he has for me. I couldn't just sit around doing nothing so I went to
look for Pal, but came up totally empty-handed. No matter who I beat up, nobody knew what I was talking about. Edge must have kept it very
need-to-know. I'm going to kick his old ass when I see him. If he hurts Pal in any way at all, there is going to be one fewer crime boss in
this city tonight.
I really didn't need a visit from an old friend. Lana stopped by just awhile ago to see me. Chloe told her where to find me. I know she did.
I guess I couldn't expect her to keep her mouth shut the whole summer. It's cool. I invited Lana up to my place. Actually, she invited
herself. She does stuff like that. She seems to think that everybody will do anything for her just because she's Lana. I don't care about
that right now. It was annoying that she called my parents while I was out of the room. I talked to Jonathan and told him to go to hell. I
won't be going home. They need to accept that. They need to move on. It's better this way.
I got rid of Lana. It's funny what a few well chosen gropes (she gets the cutest look in her eyes when you pinch her ass) and a kiss will
accomplish. I do have to give her credit for perseverance. She really wanted me to come back to
Smallville with her. She kept saying that people
missed me and that they loved me -- how they refuse to give up on me. Blah, blah, blah. So what. I have the most important person in my life
here. I had him here and I'll have him again.
I'm supposed to go meet him soon. As soon as I do this one thing for Edge and Lex is with me again, we're going to leave town and disappear
for a long time. We could use the change of scenery. I have gotten totally bored with this town.
~
07:46 am
I wish I could be happy
Yesterday, when I met with Edge, he said he knew all about my relationship with Lex, and that as long as I broke into Lionel's office and
took what was in his safe, nothing would happen to Lex. I was supposed to bring the tube I took from Lionel's safe to Edge last night at
midnight. Edge said he would kill Lex unless I showed up.
But I didn't make it. Lex is gone. I didn't get the package to Edge. I did get it, I still have it here with me, but last night Dad was
there waiting for me in Lionel Luthor's office. He had my strength and my powers. He broke the ring and the scar burned away from my chest.
The pain as it burned away was excruciating. I'm so glad it's finally gone.
Once the ring was removed, I felt so drained emotionally and physically. Dad could barely move. He looked really bad. I think whatever
happened to him took a huge toll on him. Dad and I came home late last night. I couldn't just leave him where he was. I just couldn't. After
everything he risked, I had to go home. I didn't say anything to Dad on the ride home. There wasn't anything to say. If Jor-El hadn't given
him those abilities to fight me, I might have killed him. He still looks bad this morning. He has some bruises that I can see. I can only
imagine the ones he hides. That fight we had should have killed him.
It was so good to see Mom, but the feelings of what had happened with her baby were still there. When she hugged me, I thought for sure I'd
feel better, but all I can feel was pain. They both said they never blamed me, but it's not that easy.
It was nice to have home cooking first thing this morning. Mom looked tired this morning, but she looked happy.
We're moving. At least my parents are. I don't know if I want to stay here. I want to go find Lex. He can't be dead. There's no way Edge
would have killed him the way he claimed he would. At least I hope he didn't kill him.
I treated Lex so badly, and now he might be gone. I might never see him again. I have the necklace that I bought him. I have to change the
tag. It's not right. None of this is right.
I should have been nicer to him. I should have told him that I loved him. I didn't even get a chance to do that before he went out.
Now I have to go pack. We have to move by the end of the month.
This is just so fucked up. I wish I was in the city with Lex and he was safe. I feel angry and frustrated and just plain mad. All of this
sucks. There's a part of me that wants to just run and find Lex, but then I'm too afraid of what I'll find if I do go after him. I don't
even know where to start looking. Edge hid him so well. If he does kill him, I'll make sure he never forgets who he messed with.
~
10:46 pm
It's so different to be back here.
I'm home. It's quiet now and my parents are in bed.
After everything I've been through, the sudden change of scenery is jarring. I was so used to the noise of the city and now here it's so
quiet. I spent most of today packing and getting things ready for the yard sale we're having tomorrow. We have too many things and they
won't fit wherever we're going. I'm not even sure I'll be going with my parents. I was honest with my dad. I told him that I might not stay.
I made him promise not to say anything to Mom. I don't want him to worry her unless I'm sure about my next move is.
I know I want to find Lex. I haven't heard anything from him yet. I called our old place and left a message to let him know where I was. I
hope he gets it. I still have all my stuff there. I have to use Mom's computer to go on line, but I'm being very careful to cover all my
tracks. I don't want her to know about this journal or what I've been up to.
The drugs are completely out of my system. At least I don't feel any side effect that I can tell. I haven't gone to see my friends yet. I
plan to go see Lana tomorrow and apologize to her for what I did. I know she was only trying to help. I have so many people to apologize to.
AJL should be the first one, but he's not here.
Pete stopped by today. I wish I could say it was nice to see him. It wasn't as though I hated to see him, but back in the city I could be
me. Pete doesn't even know I'm gay.
I have too many things to do before tomorrow and right now there's no way I can get any sleep, so I guess I'll have a lot of time on my
hands. Mom and Dad really are happy to have me back. At least I think they are. Mom keeps checking to make sure I'm really here and Dad
keeps asking me if I'm okay. It's kind of irritating. I know they missed me and I was gone for the last three months, but I wish they'd
leave me alone just for a few hours.
Right now, all I want is for Lex to walk through that door and smile and tell me that he's fine. I just want him to be safe. He has to be
okay or I don't know what I'll do.
~
Aug. 27th, 2005
09:43 pm
It happened!
I spent all morning running the yard sale, which was depressing because I ended up having to part with some of the things I never thought
I'd give up. The truth was, I didn't need those things anymore. I'm different now.
I took a break to go into town and apologize to Lana. She seemed to forgive me. I mean, she wasn't upset, just worried. I didn't deny it
when she guessed that I might not stay in town. I felt so bad for how I treated her. She didn't deserve that. All those things I did... I'm
never going to be able to apologize enough to Lex or Lana or Chloe for that matter. They all stood by me no matter how I behaved. I feel so
lucky to have such great friends.
After lunch, I continued to pack up the truck. It was so depressing, until he showed up. It was like seeing heaven when all I'd lived was
hell. He was so beautiful and I have to admit, I ran to him and held him in my arms. I didn't want to let go. I didn't care about anything
else but him at that moment. I was just so relieved to see him alive and healthy.
When we kissed, I swear, I thought I was going to explode. My heart was pounding so hard. I've never been so happy in my entire life to see
anybody. I didn't even care if anybody was watching. I just didn't care at all. Nothing else mattered.
I was almost sure that I'd decide to leave town, but now I'm not so sure. I'm going to wait to see what happens.
I am going to be so happy when things get back to normal.
~
12:19 pm
I do not want to be back here
These halls feel so foreign. School feels so strange. It isn't even because I haven't been in school all summer. I just don't feel like I
belong here. Every time I pass a girl, she smiles at me. When it first happened, it was at my locker. Deb, this girl who's never even talked
to me, said she loved my hair. Everybody in the school knows I ran away from home. I didn't say anything, hoping she'd just go away.
Unfortunately, that did not end the conversation. She wanted to know how it felt to live on my own. I was tempted to tell her I spent my
summer naked in bed with my boyfriend, but I just told her it had its moments, and then I said I needed to get to class.
I had a chance to talk to Chloe. She was way more forgiving than I thought she would be. I was pretty nasty to her over the summer. She's
such a great friend. It was so good to hug her and be forgiven.
Now I have to get to class.
~
06:09 pm
The second day back to school
It was almost painless. I mostly kept to myself. Pete keeps trying to get as much info about my summer as possible. I finally told him that
he wouldn't believe me even if I was hooked up to a lie detector. I did end up telling him about some of the run-ins I had with crime
bosses. He mostly wanted to know if I'd hooked up with any chicks. At least I could actually tell the truth with that one. I did kiss a few
girls. I left the rest up to his imagination, and by the look on his face he has quite the imagination.
Lex stopped by after school today. He gifted my parents with the deed to the farm. Bought and completely paid for. Dad actually took it! I
was a little shocked considering how much he'd been against Lex giving us any money in the past. My parents looked really happy and they
even accepted Lex as part of the family. Both my parents are now on our side. I better not tell them about the part where I tied Lex to my
bed. That might not go over too well.
I guess this means I'm staying right here. I'm not sure how I feel about that.
Lex did bring my things from the apartment to me. I'm so happy to have my own laptop back. The other laptop I 'sort of bought' is under my
bed. I'm not sure what to do with it. I guess I'll just keep it. Lex said he took care of everything and made sure all my tracks were
covered. He's so amazing. I already miss my high speed internet.
I also gave him back his necklace, but that I did last night when I went home with him. We had an amazing time. It was the best kind of
reunion I could ever have hoped for. I'm really lucky he stood by me the whole time this past summer.
Now I just have to figure out what to do with these clothes I bought over the summer. There aren't many places I could wear leather in our
little town.
~
06:01 pm
Crap!
I just opened the tube I took from Lionel's safe. It's a small map with Kryptonian writing on it. I think it's about the stone.
Shit. How the hell did Lionel Luthor find this thing, and what the hell is he doing with it? Screw him.
I showed it to Dad and he said to just hide it. There is no way I am giving this back to Lionel or Edge, no matter what happens. They can
both go to hell.
I'm just going to go over to see Lex, and forget this thing even exists.
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